xmas celebrations and reflections of the year...

dear friends,

well, i wanted to blog about this a couple of days ago but too busy.. it's like exam's on the 5th of jan and worst is that even on new year's day also have to study much less go to kl for countdown for the new year... initially i thought of going to bangsar with u noe, the 'bujang lapuk' ppl but then have to call it off cuz it's like super guilty if i do so... i'll spend the weekend watching fireworks from the tv while trying to cram blood vessels drainage and embryology of the heart...

the kitchen before the party starts...

christmas this year was great... but just the fact that knowing felicia is going for a scoliosis operation in UH on the 6th jan just put a cold towel a bit on our christmas celebration. this year aunt called in a carol from a church and they started of by singing amazing grace.. the carol group comprises of a mother and her daughters... and they were great cuz it's the songs that they sing and their voices brings warmth in a very hostile world outside... i've got to know aunt felicia becuase she's cai lin's mum... and i met cai lin way back when i was in form 1 when my aunt threw a party for her in sunway lagoon... that time she wasn't in the national swimming squad yet but after a shift from synchronise swimming to just swimming, she did very well after that... cai lin and her mum pops in during xmas now quite often and it was from christmas party that we renew our friendship... jen lye=21 yrs old with aunt felicia= 50+ yrs old.. and boy! she can really do the tango cuz she was my partner in some game for the party...

the carolling band...
but she'll be going into OT on 6th jan due to scoliosis.. it was pretty quite obvious now cuz the pain has become less and less bearable.. and when after the amazing grace was sung, she was already streaming with tears... i feel sad for her as well cuz it's a very dangerous operation and i do hope she'll make it out safely... i've gave my word to her to visit her and i will...

ah... we had of course plenty of food... great food with western blend and asian taste... it was in all great and we had turkey... boy after dinner i felt i weighed an extra couple of kilos... fine dining at it's best! =)
the eastern cuisine
the korean style food..
chinese style prawns... fuh.. i tell u... i ate 12 prawns!! clogging up my arteries...=P
a mountain of ferrero rocher and desserts..
more desserts and wines...
the turkey with cranberry sauce...
my uncle and me....
dining... that's aunt felicia with the polka dot blouse... pls pray for her ppl k? thanks...=)

i felt blessed with things that i have now with me... blessed that god has kept me safe in many ways... touch wood i've got nothing and i'm fine and both my parents and sis is fine... and i'm having a good education so that i can have a better future... of course we envy sometimes on what others have but then it's always one thing that i'll remember till today if i don't have anything that even though i crave for... god will provide enough... this christmas is a time to recollect back our memories of friendship and familial ties... and put our prayers into hope and faith that we'll do our best and live our life to the fullest with no regrets and god himself will take care of the rest..

as the year draws it's curtain behind me, i have to say that i will walk into the new year with full of hope, faith and love to share with everyone... mistakes that i've made in the past shall stay on with me as a lesson learned and not to be repeated... and sometimes even though i feel that friends around me who don't accept me as i am as in i'm somebody's friend's friend that kinda thing, i guess patience should be given and let time takes it course...

and one thing that i've learned throughout my 2006 is that time is a great healer... it can heal wounds that you never expect to heal... it can give a person some time for soul searching.. and finally it can give someone enough time to know what they really want in life... and while the clock ticks away, one keeps busy with daily chores to forget something that's painful and persevere on till one day the heart is finally ready to accept an apology that's been so difficult to come to terms with at the very beginning...

we all are humans.. we are nothing close to perfect... we throw away the bad and pick up the good so we can be a better person in some way... there's frustration throughout my year in 2006 and of course if everything was smooth, then even the good has no place for cherished memories...

finally, as the new year looms ahead, i shall walk into it with a heart full of confidence, of perseverance, of hope, of faith, and of love... i wish my family, relatives, friends and enemies alike a very happy new year... if i have ever said or did anything that have hurt your feelings in some way, i'm sorry... may your year ahead be filled with joy and laughter and happiness... and there's plenty of love to be shared around... do that and i'm sure the year ahead will be a better year that's awaiting us...

here are some undated pics about me throughout the year 2006...
posers unlimited with nina...
and with sis and nina...
the cousins.. nina, sis, and e wah...
family trip to genting...
my 21st bday....
the group who came for my bday... thanks!

steamboat at yuen's with xan, hwei wan, pei, denise and geoff..
as squash coach during my electives...
my dear jie whom i really do miss in moscow... thanks for being a great friend in many ways...

me and xan... muax!
the genting trip... wonderful memories...

with xan in wong kok char chan teng during kitty's bday...
gaik chin, me, joy and wei cheng... great senior friends from seremban... miss u ppl loads!

and finally the imu buddies whom i shall cherish and stay thru thick and thin...=)

signing off with warmest regards,
jens

p/s: i've post some pics from the party itself and of other occasions that i would like to reflect upon..
have a pleasant new year 2007..=)

My Christmas Dream

i'm all plugged into Il Divo's album and it's their 4 voices that serenades my mind this moment... even though some of their songs are in spanish but their vocals are really great... really really great...

and all i can do now is dream of attending their concert... IL DIVO LIVE IN KUALA LUMPUR... but the cheapest ticket which was priced at RM500 and even the RM800 were sold out... it was such a heart ache for me... in fact when anne told me that they were coming, i should just jump into calling ticket axess and book the ticket.. but it's like RM500.. yeah... cheapest...

and today after checking the ticket selling, the diamond seating(VIPs and Ministers, which i think it's priced at RM2000) were sold out.. left was only RM1500 and RM1000 tickets.....

and all i can do now is just to wait till the day i start working and i made myself a vow to watch them live singing... because their songs pierces deep into your soul and heart and it stays forever... i did watch their recorded concert at my aunt's place during their europe tour... they only sang 5 songs.... and i could just stare and watch the dvd replay and replay for 3 times... they were just sooo good... and they are...

as i said, it's just a christmas dream... a dream of a RM1000 ticket to watch il divo... their music brings a different genre altogether... it's different from others because they can just make music even without violins, cellos or guitars if they want to... it's their voices that keeps my notes reading on and on.... they made me enjoy music like how music is meant to be enjoyed...

don't get me wrong... i do love jay chou.... but il divo's in a class of their own... just a class of their own... untouched by anyone... it's not something that u get very often.. maybe a century you'll get a group that makes MUSIC.. yes... just with their pure voices...


to go to their concert is really a dream... perhaps sometimes dreams are called dreams because we are in a world of reality... maybe i'll get the chance to go when i start making money on my own... but till then, i guess i have to make do with watching them on dvds and listening to them on cds...

get their ancora album or their christmas album... plug it into ur ears and let them take you for a ride....

and i promise you you'll fall in love with them... just like how i did... they could make me shed tears over their singing... mesmerised... enchanted...

guess that enuf said....=) LONG LIVE IL DIVO!!

無間道

無間道 - 梁朝偉 & 劉德華

梁︰不　我不願意結束
　　我還沒有結束
　　無止境的旅途
劉︰看著我　沒停下的腳步
　　已經忘了身在何處

梁︰誰能改變　人生的長度
　　誰知道永恆有多麼恐怖
劉︰誰了解生存往往比命運還殘酷
　　只是沒有人願意認輸

梁︰我們都在不斷趕路忘記了出路
　　在失望中追求偶爾的滿足
劉︰我們都在夢中解脫清醒的苦
　　流浪在燈火闌珊處
合︰去不到終點　回到原點
　　享受　 那走不完的路

劉︰一路上演出難得糊塗
梁︰一路上回顧難得麻木
劉︰在這條親密無間的路
梁︰讓我像你
劉︰你像我
合︰怎麼會孤獨

合︰既然沒終點　回到原點
　　我想　我們都不　不在乎

無間道(粵語) Mou Gaan Dou

華︰我　要為我活下去
　　也代你活下去
　　捱極也未曾累
偉︰忘掉我　有沒有在陶醉
　　若有未來依然要去追

華︰生命太短　明日無限遠
　　始終都不比永遠這樣遠
偉︰不理會世上長路太多終點太少
　　木馬也要去繼續轉圈

華︰明明我已昨夜無間　踏盡面前路
　　夢想中的彼岸為何還未到
偉︰明明我已奮力無間　天天上路
　　我不死也為活得好
華及偉︰有沒有終點　誰能知道
　　在這塵世的無間道

華︰如何能離開失樂園
偉︰能流連忘返總是情願
華︰要去到極樂條長路遠
偉︰吃苦中苦
華︰苦中苦
偉及華︰熱永不間斷

華及偉︰快到終點　才能知道
　　又再回到起點　從頭上路

the unending road...
never ending...

complicated minds

minds...
they can be wonderful...
they can be strange...
they can be tactful...
they can be far thinking...
but worst... they can be deceiving...

please welcome...
THE DEPARTED...

i've spent today watching this show and not reading my cvs notes... i'm supposed to study embrology but heck... it's soooo good till i can't resist the tempation... and no regrets... it's the BEST.. yeah D BEST in terms of BEST movie on undercover police...

basically it's about cramming the whole wu jian dao "infernal affairs"無間道 1,2,3 into a single 2 and a half hour show... it's so copy cat but somehow i love watching these kinda undercover trying to be somebody else, influencing and playing mind games and see who cracks first... story line is EXACTLY the same man... i wonder how lame can the directors be... EXACTLY the same... the scene where leonardo di caprio was shot in the lift on the way down was like exactly how tony leung got shot too... and how his boss got thrown down from the building and killed was exactly how inspector wong died in infernal affairs..
both shows also boast a star studded cast with infernal affairs led by andy lau, tony leung, lai meng, wong chau sang, edison chen and shawn yue.. that goes as well for 'the departed' with stars like matt damon, leonardo di caprio, jack nicholson, mark wahlberg, martin sheen(from the west wing) and alec baldwin...

i love infernal affairs.. all 3 of them... becuase it's real cool.. triad members wearing shades and shooting policemen... and of course it's tony leung and andy lau man!!! super star!!!=P

it was all a repeat of infernal affairs but this time with hollywood actors.. but it was great cuz leonardo's acting was 1st class... seriously... in fact i think his expression was far better than tony leung's in infernal affairs 3... in fact this show was exactly the same but without infernal affairs 2... cuz i think they didn't have the time to remake all 1,2,3 and left out part 2.. but they managed to do a pretty good job though the story line is the same...

but what i'm impressed is that this show was actually based on true stories of undercover police officers who dwell deep into the hong kong triad back before 1997... they have to lie in order to survive... tortured to prevent the truth from leaking... and when even get the stares of own fellow policemen who cast the shadow of doubt even after the case has been resolved...

sometimes they lie till the don't know who they really are... finally matt damon (who played the role of andy lau) tries to eliminate all jack nicholson's (who played the role of eric tsang) spies in the police force only to be killed later in the end by mark wahlberg (who played the role of sam cheng)... he tries to take out all spies because all he wants to be is to be with his doctor girlfriend and to be a good guy... “我要做好人”-劉健明... and of course, he killed his very own boss, jack nicholson just like how andy lau shot eric tsang... i'm actually a big fan of infernal affairs and when i got to know hollywood's reenactment of this trilogy, i was thrilled.. but the only draw back was of course by comparing both the chinese version and the english one... but of course, we have to take into account that infernal affairs was a trilogy... the departed is just a single shooting...

and it's like a one for one substitute for acting... even dad could predict what happens next... even when matt damon face to face with jack nicholson in the crossfire of policemen, how jack nicolson found out that matt damon betrayed him (by calling his handphone) was just the same like how eric tsang called for andy lau when he was cornered...

but as i said, it's real good acting.. both matt and leonardo really did a good job... but what makes me love watching this show is that how much a person is willing to lose to go so far into what they are doing... lying to oneself at one instant and seeing a psychiatrist later to pour out his pent up feelings not knowing that the psychiatrist is actually his rival's girlfriend... ahahha... so farny lar... somehow both matt and leonardo didn't meet till the rooftop incident.. and the face off with a handgun at matt damon's head is just the same like in infernal affairs..

last but not least, for those who love infernal affairs, i suggest to give the departed a shot... try not to compare that much and let the movie take u for a ride... i of course talk too much cuz was soooooo eager to comment everytime when i see a similarity between both the chinese and english version so i already started evaluating right from the start... i guess that took pretty much of the fun away...

oh and yes... finally... as for fans of jay chou (like me), don't forget to catch his 'curse of the golden flower' coming out on 21st dec before christmas!!! oh boy! i love christmas and of course an avid fan of jay chou!!! so pls pls pls don't forget to watch ok????? you will love it!!! i promise you!!! =) ehehehhee...=)

he's so cool isn't he... you've got to agree with me...=)

christmas love

the season is here...

first of all, season greetings to everyone...

i close my eyes and let the wonderful air of christmas rejuvinate my senses and mind...

it's lovely.. it's heavenly.. no words can describe the feeling of christmas...

ah.. and thanks titus, if you are reading my blog, thank you for inviting me over for the christmas party... the story about the painting really does touch the heart... good job.. every year i'll always look forward for your christmas invitation because i know that it's after the party that i realise how christmas is such a meaningful day for everyone of us...

and today i went to berjaya times square and then later to subang parade to do some shopping... i didn't study today and i've always had this nagging feeling that if i don't study for the day, there will be a profound sense of guilt that will overwhelm me...

but today, that feeling didn't come... i find it perplexing that the guilt that once haunted me isn't there... how come? i guess becuase the season is here... and when everytime i hear christmas songs, my whole soul seems to have a profound sense of rejuvination and the elimination of tiredness and fatigue... it's good.. i love that feeling...

i left berjaya times square with my purchase of gray's anatomy at border's and then later at left subang parade with a purchase of a shoe... dad and mum bought books at mph and then only we went back...

ok... well... that's for today... however yesterday was a total contrast...

dad's car got smashed up in an accident involving 2 other cars near the ss18/ss14 U turn junction.. apparently some proton saga did the U turn without stopping and rammed into dad's car and dad's car hit another kancil which the kancil spun and landed on the divider... my dad's perdana was total wreck... and seems that need bout 2 weeks to get the repair done... but luckily everyone was ok except for mental trauma...

one thing that i hate most are the tow truck drivers... they are like vultures who come and swoop down on their weakened prey (the mentally traumatised drivers) and when they pursuade the drivers to tow their cars away, they literally force the drivers to sign an agreement which states that their cars will be taken away to their very own workshop not in favour of the driver but of the tow truckers... and boy, what a fracas took place when me and dad went to the ss17 police station to report... cuz when we arrived, there was arleady 2 other accident cases there and tow truckers were making lots of fuss about getting the car out and demanding payment...

it was a nightmare...

but all said and done, i guess it was by all means god's grace that no one was hurt and of course though the car was smashed no serious injury happened... just that lots of paper work to be done... insurance claim yada yada... but anyhow, dad's on leave till the 23rd of dec, which he will then work for 2 days then off for christmas till dec 30 where he will be going to china till 13th jan for company trip... sis will be off to hong kong on the 13th of dec and back oni on the 20th... well, looks like everyone's going SOMEPLACE but i'm just here stuck in the library preparing for cvs ica...

but nevertheless, i'm happy.... i'm happy because it's christmas... i'm happy that i'm able to celebrate christmas every year... i'm happy that my family is fine... i'm happy that xandra is fine... i'm happy that xandra's family as well is fine... i'm happy my friends are doing ok... and finally i'm happy because i want to be happy...

i love my life... and every bit of it... our life don't always promise sweet journeys but it always promises hope and dreams to be fulfilled and love to be shared...

god loves all of you... i love you too...=)

have a merry little christmas... share the love around...

yours,
jens

silence

here i am...

staring out the window as i observed the last drops of the angel's tears that fall from the heavens above... i sucked in the fresh air to rejuvinate tired eyes but it doesn't yield any effect...

i'm tired.. i'm exhausted... i'm spent...

and thinking it's just only the 2nd week into it, i wonder whether i could still plod on without having the fear in me of not knowing enough on what's going on... i wonder sometimes whether this am i cut out for this... or whether am i just driven by the little faith in me of pushing myself harder and harder...

dad has always emphasised on pushing oneself to the limit... to know the limit we can go to.. to know that with every success comes hardwork.. and with hardwork comes satisfaction...

but somehow or rather, i lack motivation... the drive in me is failing... i can sense it... is it due to the awkward time table? or is it due to the fact that i've not known the reason anymore why am i doing here at the first place... i'm here because i've chosen this path to walk.. i've no regrets... need i battle this issue with myself anymore?

sometimes u feel that everything is moving fine and you try your best to keep up... but there are times when you feel that you've given everything and still find yourself behind the things that you are supposed to know... it's like having a rug being pulled underneath you.. you fall even though you have had a firm footing on what you perceive as a solid ground...

it's darn frustrating... and it's eating me up bit by bit...

no doubt i've become very kiasu when i entered imu... perhaps i'm driven to study hard because i know that i've made up my mind and i'm committed into delivering the results... somehow or rather i don't want to lose the real me along the way... i'm a crazy guy... i laugh till my belly ache and tears flow out, i sing aloud trying to impress everyone with my singing but only to know it rained the hardest on that day, i laugh at my own jokes at times, i tried imitating david beckham's free kick only to see my shoe flying off and hit jolyn's head... but somehow, this me has been slipping away without me realising it... or now that i've sensed it, is that what is called by 'growing up'?

but i miss the old me... when i could sing and the whole class boo-ed me, when i made jokes but nobody laughs except me and to laugh out loud when no one's laughing...

but now, all i can think of is bruit, paradoxical embolism, hyperplastic arteriolosclerosis...

have my life took a sudden change now without me realising it? that i was funny and i don't have to try to be funny and now i'm trying to be funny even though i'm no more funny anymore...

sounds wierd? or am i still wierd?

i can still run 5km without stopping... but i wonder can my brains run 5 more weeks before cvs ica without stalling further?

i've always counted on faith in everything i do... and i put my whole heart into it... in everything.. yes.. in everything...

i hope faith hasn't left me in the dark alone now...

i'm a believer and i believe in myself, i believe in everything i do... and most of all i believe in my very own whisperings of my heart...

i reckon that should be enough...

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!!

菊花台...

and finally the moment that i've been waiting for since his last debut in 2005 with initial D...

WELCOME JAY CHOU IN CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER!!!

he's here!! he's here!! damn.. i'm such a fan of jie lun.. he's just soooooooooo super duper cool... 21st december!! everyone take note!! i'm soo going to buy his ticket... it will be good especially with chow yun fatt and gong li in it..

actually when i came to hear this song in his new album i stumbled into it by chance actually.. it was up in you tube when i was surfing for his new album and then only i realised that he was already involved in this project by zhang yimou and playing a role beside GONG LI... u can't imagine the fact that u are acting beside a legendary actress who shot to fame with 'farewell my concubine' in 1993... i'm also a fan of gong li and zhang zi yi ok...

then the icing on the cake was of course none other than the rising star ZHOU ZIE LUN... he's the best... better than the rest!!! ahaha... been watching short clippings preview of the movie on youtube and sony pictures... he's not so kaku like before in inital D.. but then come to think of it, takumi fujiwara is memang the *blur* kind so suit jay's personality in some way...

but this time it's a different ball game.. thinking of jay's acting skills in sword play and spear play.. boy! i'm already high in adrenaline just waiting to watch his 2nd movie... i use to loathe the sight of jay at the beginning but he's definitely getting better by the day/album/ movie... whatever...

so guys do watch his show k!!!

i promise you it's gonna be great.. just like the song.. which i can spend hours listening to the playbacks without getting bored..

jay rawks!!!=)

i wanted to sing this song for the friday nite performance but then... my singing sucks.. aih.. guess i'm just limited to bathroom singing...=P

菊花台

曲：周杰倫
詞：方文山

妳　的淚光　柔弱中帶傷

慘白的月彎彎　勾住過往

夜　太漫長　凝結成了霜

是誰在閣樓上　冰冷的絕望

雨　輕輕彈　朱紅色的窗

我一生在紙上　被風吹亂

夢　在遠方　化成一縷香

隨風飄散　妳的模樣

＊菊花殘　滿地傷　妳的笑容已泛黃

花落人斷腸　我心事靜靜躺

北風亂　夜未央　妳的影子剪不斷

徒留我孤單　在湖面　成雙＊

花　已向晚　飄落了燦爛

凋謝的世道上　命運不堪

愁　莫渡江　秋心拆兩半

怕妳上不了岸　一輩子搖晃

誰　的江山　馬蹄聲狂亂

我一身的戎裝　呼嘯滄桑

天　微微亮　妳輕聲的嘆

一夜惆悵　如此委婉

REPEAT＊＊

我爱你周杰倫!!!!!!!!!!!

just thoughts...

ah...

wondered what does a team manager do during any event? especially without proper sleep the nite before coupled with community clinic visit the day before?

STONE...

ah... wondered how i got into this mess? not mess actually.. just that prob without proper sleep i was just stoning there kau kau watching the U-17 charges from subang play their respective games and making sure that no one goes missing and go astray...

so here i am early this morning leaving my house at 7.45 am fetching my sis for the opening match at 8.30am and at the same time over look all the subang team players who are playing before leroy comes at 11am... not enuf sleep and driving daily to uni and to jinjang prob has taken it's toll.. once i reached there, i was just craving for my daily milo kosong panas with fried mee/nasi lemak/ curry mee/ whatever to satisfy my bfast hunger but then have to stay there until the whole 4 players finish playing in this team event...

then i rushed to jalan gasing to tapau 2 packs of nasi lemak and rushed back to astaka.. then oni i realised that had i leave 10 mins later, there's a stall set up in astaka selling food.. aih... waste time and petrol oni.. but nasi lemak was great... *cheng cheng cheng*... =P

and all i did today was just wasting time watching them play and the SINGAPOREANS play as well...

speaking of SPOREANS.. no offence to my sporean friends ok.. there are a nice bunch of ppl... really.. honestly.. but i guess their kiasuness are so inevitable that i sometimes wonder is there a specific gene that codes for kiasuism in their DNA... ahaha.. speaking on medical terms... but then u ahve to admit it... ok.. the players stay at hilton pj and of course, since so near to astaka they would obviously be there as early as posisble...

but the thing was.. they sent in a total of 8-9 teams and every court in astaka was just taken up by them...

i can't believe it myself either... 8 courts ALL by sporeans.. and our msians still stood there like dungu waiting for them to finish warming up.. one thing for sure i know is that once u enter there's no exit unless being chased by the tournament comittee.. and there i was standing there trying to look courteous and ask them to scoot off... since btw it's ASTAKA PJ.. not some Raffles Sports Hall.. eh.. even we msians when play in spore also know what's the meaning of leaving an empty court as a courtesy for we are the host of the event...

and i have to say as well, the players are damn LAN SI!!

ok.. today wasn't really a good day lar.. telling honestly lar... and the best part of the day came when milo van which was the official drink came to set up the free milo give away like they always do in any mbpj tournament (except for pj open), the commotion and the crowd gathering around the tap for some small cup which i think was less than 3 Oz, was shocking...

those days i have to admit even myself couldn't care less about not drinking thru cup and POURING AWAY MY WATER IN MY BOTTLE TO FILL IT WITH FREE MILO...

now i understand why was it so embarrasing to do so since i've already grown up... and worst is that u see the U-17 players as well doing that.. shit! i mean it's just milo man... go home and ask ur mum to make for u.. and like they haven't seen a milo tong before lar... all gather around and go for refills after refills... ish.. i think i waited for 3 mins before i got my turn...

so basically the day was just watching others play, talking to the kaki lang squash gang, playing 3 quarters, and warming up the players with drills before each of them start their games... so much so for the day.. best part was i brought my Lily's to read about ECG and guess what.. nothing obviously entered... wondered how come the kiasuness of not studying for 1 day is eating me up that badly... have i got infected as well?

okok.. so tha'ts just about it.. i'm just ranting aimlessly for no apparent reason just htat my itchly little fingers crave to type something in my blog... as i said earlier, it's my diary and trying hard to keep up with it but duh... it's not updated regularly though i've been trying hard to do so...

and the sad thing is that i'm damn bloody sure i can't make it into the sel team for sukma lar.. even though they made it U-23 and in 2008 i'll be 23, but since i saw how the other sel team players play i guess i could even lose to the last player in sel team A... i guess that's why i'm not in bjss but imu though they share the same location..=P

ok.. back to ECG and thani's lecture.. damn it lar pbl 2 is on monday and i haven't found a damn thing yet... i normally do my pbl thru books like i did for the previous one but now i guess i need the help of the internet even though it's not really reliable source of information.. haih.. i hope my fuel is enuf to keep me going...

that's all for now peeps...=)

p/s: oh.. and being so frustrated and been STONING prac the whole day and not being able to play myself, i entertained myself with a total 12 cups of milo and before i left, i EMPTIED my 500ml SPRITZER BOTTLE AND FILLED THEM WITH MILO much to the dismay of aunty mary...
what the heck... not like i'm the ONLY one doing it... was fun cuz reminded me of the old days... speaking of embarassment... ooooppppsss!!!!=P

journeys in life

it's 9.45 am...

i'm having pharmaco notes in front of me.. but i can't stop to put something here what my very heart is feeling now...

it seems to be only a couple of months since we started uni again.. but it already seems like half a year has gone by... maybe it was the numerous exams we have to take and we took 3 exams already... tmw is the forth... and i've been trying very very hard to get an A... oh god pls look over my shoulders tmw...

and there's something else that i'm thinking of... whether am i still the one whom you've been thinking of before going to bed and whether do the stars above still provide you with warmth and comfort that they have promised...

it's now that i understand i'm still not matured enough like a 21 yr old... and do things with an impulsive nature that sometimes leave my family members, relatives, friends and you hurt with remarks that i've made... i used to have a bad temper and now i've tried my best to keep them in check before i lose it... and i've still got a long way to go in my journeys in life and still got a lot more to learn...

i'm proud and happy to have a bunch of really good friends in imu to share the experience of learning medicine and sharing our journeys in life together... i'm thankful i have a great family and relatives who supported me with their never failing love and trust even though i've also hurt them in some ways.. and lastly, i've always looked up above and send a silent prayer to you to let you know how much u mean to me and that i'm always there for you...

there's nothing in life that can be certain... but the thing that makes us who we are, are the things that we go thru together... thru thick and thin... to those who still take me as their friend after i've made remarks that didn't mean to make, to those who still care for me even though i didn't show enough care in return, to those who tried to mould me into a better person but i just ignored thinking that i'm already good enough, and to those who still love me for all the faults i've made and that i'm not perfect and accepted me as who i am, i'm sorry... i'm trying very hard in improving myself... it's something honestly said from me...

i've always tried to be honest in whatever i do... comments that i've made... actions that i've done... maybe it's because my dad has thought me that honesty will not leave you worrying what have you said to someone... because you know that you mean what you say...

i believe in life there's always a time we will look back and reflect what we did in the past... i have put my thoughts this very morning here so when i'm in doubt again and when i feel that everything is working against me, i've always had a group of good friends (my sec school mates, f6 friends and imu) to help me out... the heart is too small to be filled with unhappy things... but it's always big enough to pour in some love and care... and i'm trying to put these wonderful things into those i feel whom i will stand by them just as they will stand by me in times of need...

i wear my heart on my sleeve maybe cuz life is short... if we do really care and mean to do it for someone, there's nothing wrong in doing it and showing how much you care... as long as it's honest and true from the heart... i feel that's the most important thing... i wouldn't mind showing to my friends how much i care for them becuase i really do... it's always great to have ppl around you who care and love you... i wouldn't want to look back some day and regret that i've not given my all to those who deserve the friendship, care and love from me...

at times of course i'm down and out, and sometimes the only thing that makes me happy is to play squash till i dropped... i remembered when kh ong was my coach when young, he pushed us like how he pushed his son... till we all had to crawl out from the court panting for breath... i love the way how i have to go for every ball in court... maybe cuz it shows that every ball i take is every chance i take and i don't wanna lose it... i appreciate what i have with me... especially you xan...

to all those who feel who has made an impact in my life, to those who reads my blog to know me better, to those who have worked their way out of their paths to help me and to those who forgave and accepted me for who i really am, you have a very big heart...

thank you very much... god bless u... you have my honest friendship, companionship and trust in return...

lastly, i'm happy with everything that i have with me and what i'm doing now... regrets we all have a few but it's how we pick up ourselves and cherish what we have that's with us now...

love you...
muaks dear....=)

p/s my 21st bday pics will be uploaded after exams... when i have the free time during cvs...

i'm sorry

will you forgive me?

i've turned 21 2 days ago...

it's a real big thing for me.. but being 21 means i have to be responsible for what i have done and for the actions that i've taken...

but i realised at such an age... i'm still making foolish mistakes... it's no more the days when you just can smile innocently and get away with a sorry...

i know this time i botched it up pretty bad... and i know a word of sorry isn't all gonna do good...

i've hurt ppl's feelings along the way throughout my schooling life.. i've hurt them because of comments that i've made that didn't go thru my brains and mind before i shoot out at others...

and worst of all i pulled the plug on a day which i felt was the most happiest day of my life... and i threw it all away...

a person's heart is as delicate as glass... a simple knock can shatter and spill it's inside... it's the saddest thing to know that the glass that just broke was the one whom i've poured my love into it and am still pouring into...

i'm sorry... and this comes from a honest heart from me to you... i'm so so sorry...

it shall not happen again.. i promise..

i know i'm not perfect... and i've made mistakes... and the worst thing is that i'm making it on you... i want you to know that i'm very sorry...

i love you... i do.. now and always...

starry night

Weary eyed I took a stroll
Though was late, but work has taken its toll
I needed a break and to the field I went
In search for the stars that leads me to neverland
I cried to the stars littering the skies at night
I wished I could pause awhile and enjoy the sight
But tonight the sky is veiled by jealous clouds
I stood and stared with increasing doubts
Of late the sky has been crying
And the clouds above have veiled your feelings
Gone when I could see your lovely jewels
Where each and everyone shone brightly as pearls
Your beauty is one that never lies
I’ve enjoyed watching you beyond the distant skies

Where have you been my beloved star?
You’ve been my guide near and afar
With you’ve been veiled I’ve lost my way
I’ve been circling wildly lost for days
Each night I’ve waited with little thought
What agony to me this wait has brought

And as though you have heard my cries
I caught a glimmer of you up high
Your light was faint but it persevered
Like how you taught me when everything went weird
I stood there entranced by your beauty
The clouds cleared and your sight is heavenly

Little by little you light the heavens
Your beauty has always captured my imaginations
You fill my hearts with warmth and wonder
For your presence with me is forever
Wherever I am you’ve always been my guide above earth
Back to a place where I’m warm with love
Your magic never fades throughout the years
Your light shall be my guide through all my fears
And when I’ve lost hope like I always do
Your tiny beacon of light still shines brightly through

I’ve stood and stared long enough a time
To have thought of this poem as a nursery rhyme
Your presence above has been a gift from God
It’s you the stars in loneliness I sought
You make me realize that even in the darkest of night
Your guidance will lead me through with my burdens light

Here now I walk into a home
Knowing there’s you’re always there when I’m alone
O' stars I shall seek you dearly
For you will forever be in my heart eternally

Wan Jen Lye

11/11/06

i'm staring at my blog page with nothing in mind to blog about...

should i blog about what transpired during the nursing week? neh... everybody's blogging about that.. mine's just about similar but not the same though... but if u read a few of them u will know that mine's roughly the same.. just diff wards and slightly different things we did... but we still took bp, temp and pulse and assisted whenever we can...

well since there's nothing on my mind, and i currently not in the mood of the ah pei kinda blog and i'm kinda drained after camping in the library today, i'll just have a run of the mill kinda style of blogging...

so what's in my mind now? eat... cuz now it's already 7pm and i'm waiting for mum to go out with me for dinner... it's just dinner with mum tonite cuz sis got some prefect dinner and dad's in a meeting... well... i guess i'm getting used to it... think tonite's dinner will be at yu kee bak kut teh..=P it has just rained and the weather is a bit chilly so well, bak kut teh will be the right choice!=P speaking of food, nothing beats ss14... bak kut teh alone got 7 shops, tai chau got about 4 also, mamak got 4, petrol station got 3(which means car washing service also got 3), u can now even buy a proton car cuz we have a showroom here now(that's where i got my wira), u can do the laundry, repair ur shoe with the cobbler, buy reloads, and we have the clinic... 2 in fact on the very same row...

this is seriously boring... ahahaha... cuz i don't noe what to blog... if i start about nursing week, i'll definitely be emo wan... see how patients suffer from all types of disease from COPD to mental disorder to SLE to hydronephritis to Hodgkin's lymphoma.. it's seriously pitiful to look at their condition much less be in their shoes and know what they are going thru.. we are just like from the outside looking in... there's more suffering than what meets the eye...

i'm trying to carve a poem out from my granite head but i just can't... ain't know why.. on some days it comes out fluid as water and on some days, i spent days trying to write about something but it's just not coming out... i'm tired perhaps.. been waking up early to seremban and then back to library to catch up on what i've left out and this and that... i guess after summ2, i will have to take a break... this time i'll prob just spend a day in the club doing some swimming and eating lunch off the plate served beside the swimming pool sipping iced lemon tea.. ahaha.. i'm just dreaming! oooopppss! but nothing wrong wat... everyone has got to have their sanctuary... to feel safe sometimes whenever things are getting tough... i guess my sanctuary is just golf and a relaxing swim and prob catch a movie and later of the night stroll on my field praying hard that there's no clouds so i could catch the stars again....

always remember guys, when u feel lost sometimes, always look up above into the velvet sky and be mesmerised by the beauty of the stars that glitter like jewels far more than any price we could pay on earth... that's beauty and that's an everlasting beauty...

Happy 50th bday Mum!

Ah...

First of all defination of TGIF= Thank God It's Fridays...

My defination of TGIF after everything(makan and paying bills) = Thank Goodness I'm FAT! and Froke!!! (short for Friggin Broke)...=P

I've got intoxicated by unlimited rounds of coke, a bunch of bottomless french fries, one big slab of beef and chicken, some choc shake that taste like mc flurry's and a quarter of a piece of cake...

It's mum's bday! and it's her 50th bday... i have to say we are very happy about it cuz it's half a century old! can't imagine once u put out the word 'century' it sounds terrible old but...

yeah... 50 IS OLD...=P sorry mum...

so what we had was we went to TGIF at subang parade and were USHERED in.. wow... can't u believe it... tsk tsk.. cuz i told them in advance that my mum is coming... 'make way for the queen'... so we had like 3 TGIF ppl coming and usher us to our seats...

ah... u can't imagine the crowd on a monday nite.. in fact rite.. i later found out that there were already 4 bdays before us... (they came in during lunch hour) and after dinner i found out that my mum was the 12th time they sang happy bday to.. wow.. so many ppl bday on the 6th of nov... when were were dining, it heard at least 5-6 happy bday songs sang by the waiters and waitresses of TGIF... no wonder TGIF is 'the place' to go to...

well, words can't express what we had but then I PAID FOR THE MEAL... ehehhe... u can't imagine how much was the bill but then we ordered oni 3 stuff... my mum and sis shared... me and dad ordered our respective meals and drinks... and it was a whopping RM 149.30!!! and when i found out the tax, i nearly fell dead... tax was RM 21...

well, i guess let the pics do the talking...=P
The TGIF restaurant in Subang Parade... 1st time i'm visiting this restaurant...
Mum and dad taking pic.. wow... both already 50.. damn romantic.. =P
Me and sis cam-whoring while waiting for food to come... ish... this is soooo angelene teo-fungus style... sowee... jkjk!!!! somehow i got infected... ooppss..=P

My wonderful er... chicken and beef grill served with brocolli and mash potato... i hardly can finish my mash potato but i whacked ALL my dad's french fries.. guess fried stuff taste better.. ehehe.. think of the amount of FATS i'm gonna put on...=P








Dad's burger... er... think it's some swiss burger something lar.. can't heck remember already.. i remember whacking ALL his damn fries lar... way much better than Mc D's... i mean DUHHH...
Mum and sis shared this tower fajita thing which they can't finish which I ENDED UP EATING MOST OF IT...
Dad as usual.... just 'TRYING TO BE FUNNY'... trying to tunjuk and flex his muscle... 'I'M STILL MACHO MAN'...
My mum tucking in her fajita tower... seriously rite... never seem my mum eat so much before...
The crew singing to my mum her 50th bday song... mum was pretty surprised...=)
The free cake that TGIF gave to my mum... pretty cool eh... looks nice but seriously taste like crap.. ahaha... think nobody buy that's why they keep giving free cakes...=P
Mum blowing the candle on the cake... HAPPY 50TH BDAY MUM!!!

Dinner: RM 149.30...

The family shot... & ...............................
seeing my mum smile this BBBBIIIIIGGGGG smile............

PRICELESS!!!!

For everything else... you have...............

MASTER CARD / VISA...................................

Yeah... no joke... i'm 'froke' now...=P
it was a great dinner.. and boy.... i'm soooooo full i think i gained 2 kilos after walking out... ah and lastly....

THANK YOU T.G.I.F.!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'VE MADE MY MUM VERY VERY HAPPY TODAY!!!!!

p/s: dear xan... mum told me u called and she was kinda er... shocked but glad to get ur wishes.. er... i din tell her ur heart was racing sooo fast & she din tell me EXACTLY what both of u talked about but she's nevertheless want to say thank you..=)

dear friend

i know it's tough... i could hear it from the very tone of your voice... it doesn't take a genius to tell me that you are heartbroken.. it doesn't take a smart ass to understand the pain that you've been going thru... but its just plain stupidity sometimes to let it drag on till u feel ur life was at the bottom of the pit...

prob the wisest thing now is to let time take it's course... time is actually therapeutic... i realised it myself... the wound will heal but the scar still remains.. but then the pain will be gone and the scar will be there for you to realise that there is nothing perfect in this world... there are ups and downs.. there are heartbreaking moments you have to face.. let the scar be a reminder to you that when you get what u wish for, don't let it go away...

i can't say that i'm a perfect counsellor.. neither were u prepared to hear me out... but always noe that when u are down and out, when u feel that the air in u have been knocked out by a metal studded punch, always know that my fon is ere to air ur grieviences out.. but of course, it doesn't come free.. heck.. nothing comes free these days... so you know what i mean... *hints*

u can't just end something wonderful becuase u just have a hinge that something better will come along the way... u can't just let it go because u feel someone else might have feelings for u... it's just not right... u should be happy with what u have...

there is never end to 'what might have been'... it's what is going on is the most important thing.. u might think it's better the other way, but how sure can u be? be grateful for what u are having man... you can't forsee the future... you were once a happy guy but look at you now... you look terrible... i'm your friend for quite some time so i can safely say that you look terrible... yes.. and i mean it...

people make mistakes.. i'm not perfect myself... but u learn from your mistakes and don't repeat them... don't worry so much.. take a day at a time... if you think reconcilation is no more an option then move on... get busy with life... it's hard.. i know it's hard... but u have to pull ur socks up... suck it up... it's your mistake... so at some point, u have to pay for what u have done...

honestly, frankly, downright truthful from me is you should reconcile... wonderful things shouldn't be thrown away jsut like that... it takes some sincerity within you.. she's got to know you are sincere and want a second chance.. if you think she's all that you've got, then i wish u well.. we make mistakes some times... but important thing is that after we make them we must know it's our fault and make up to it...

i wish you well... it's been great to know that you didn't do anything stupid... don't do anything irrational.. be the person who you were once... sometimes things happen for a reason.. maybe something better will come along the way? i mean who knows?

i'm happy with my life now... and to let u know, i really do cherish what i have with me.. to know that now you are down, i'm willing to help you come out from this pool of mess... heck, i'm trying to study here but then i know you will read what i write... so i hope this will get to your senses... don't let me know that my efforts are in vain... just suck it up and apologise... maybe i wear my heart on my sleeve as what u say... but it's me... i'm true to what i do... you've known who i am...

i will remember you in my prayers man... just take care and hope things will turn out fine again...

you really owe me one...

yours as always,
your friend

my views on mahathir-badawi

argh..

it's been months this feud has been going on... we as malaysian citizens wonder when will the two leaders put a halt on this issue.. one is a former leader who made malaysia where we are today... and his successor was supposed to clean up his mess of cronism and political transparency...

so what transpired during the previous umno election which brought so much hope to us citizens were now cast into the shadows of doubt and of course gone up in smoke...

i have to say that when pak lah was elected as the PM, it wasn't Dr M's 1st choice.. to me i feel that Dr M's first choice was still the very then vibrant anwar ibrahim... this is my point of view... if not for anwar ibrahim lacking in patience to take over the govt, i would safely be sure that he'll be our next leader... betw anwar and pak lah.. i'm still a very much anwar supporter...

those days when i blindly stood for anwar ibrahim and his keadilan party which at that time trying to prevent BN from having 2/3 majority in the elections.. maybe it's because of anwar's passion to fight and put his stand on mahathir's act of cronism at that time.. but he sold the country's secrets and i guess that was too much for a leader to do... you can't wash dirty linen in public.. BN however managed to secure the 2/3 and ever since, keadilan now is no more than a 'independent' party status.. the BA stand during the last election could only manage to secure a couple of seats compared to the superior BN which featured pak lah as the leader... what seemed to be inspiring in the beginning now seems to have taken a turn for the worse....

ok.. to me, mahathir has every right to make a stand and question the actions of pak lah.. why can't he do that? he's still a rightful member of umno and of course, he still does get invited to speak at any general assembly umno organises... why then the outburst?

to me i feel that it's hitting out at pak lah's control now the situation of politiking in the umno govt itself.. khairy jamaluddin is making a mole hill out of an ant hill and he DOESN'T HAVE the slightest courage to meet our former PM face to face to talk it out.. Dr M has been an active politician since his days with umno even when khairy was still a toddler.. sometimes when a former national leader expresses his grieviences over a certain matter, we as young aspiring politicians should look into the big picture itself.. Dr M is still very influential among the businessman in malaysia especially the chinese... so what if he has his own cronies? did we slump so badly in our economy that we eventualy had to turn to IMF to bail us out?

NO...

did our economy became as bad as indonesia and thailand where coup can be staged to oust the ruling PM?

NO...

so what wrong is it for Dr M to hit out at pak lah? i feel that the situation now is a little touchy to handle for even pak lah himself... he's trying to make things more transparent, but things are jsut not going his way... transparency was the way to go during his last election and he promises to do that.. eradicate bribery in all level of politics... however, it's easier said than done... i could still remember his promises when he was being elected as the new PM...

of course, Dr M has every right to be upset about the current situation.. the bridge case, the selling of MV augusta for 1 euro... but then come to think of it, now spore doesn't want to cooperate in the bridge thing and augusta has be in the red figures for the past 3 years.. who wants to keep an ailing company not generating money? like MCA selling off their stake at nanyang siang pau..

maybe pak lah doesn't agree with Dr M's ideas all this while and couldn't do anything until the former premier has left the reign of presidenship... then he sets his own agenda and ways he feels is right to do so.... mahathir's a MBBS graduate.. badawi's a graduate in er.. econs or something like that.. when it comes to leading a country... i just wonder does the decision making skills come from what tertiary education background the leader comes from? i know that each PM has many aids who will share their thoughts on the country's development but then in the end, it's the very decision of the PM himself who will set the bottom line of the country's progress forward...

SO WHO'S RIGHT AND WHO'S WRONG?

back to square one? some might say even when the premier is no more in power, he should quit politics all together... go shoot some 18 holes somewhere... but mind u, mahathir can't hit any golf ball.. he's total nut when it comes to golf... so i guess he channels his energy on what the current situation is... it's like Minister Mentor of Spore.. i could still remember when mahathir slammed lee kuan yew for not stepping down altogether from the political scene after goh chok tong submitted his reign to lee hsien loong... LKY came up with MM post to keep himself in the political scene.. mahathir questioned why LKY still wants to be part of the politic fray of spore...

i guess mahathir answered the question himself.... cuz there are things that deosn't go eye to eye with the progress of the country during his reign and during the current PM's reign... he's just there to advice and to criticise when he feels it right to... it's hard to let go something that you've put so much effort into and let it go to smoke.. (like the bridge case for that matter)

chinese businessman doing well pak lah says... of course wat.. we are being thrown into the devil's pit without any help from the govt.. but we still managed to do well despite having no help from whosoever.. unlike the bumiputera's companies, they get this subsidy and that subsidy from govt but we have none..

NONE..

so our success comes from the very hard work blood, sweat and tears of the respective chinese businessman in our country... speaking of fairness, one politician also said that it's not wrong to help and give aid to the bumiputera's company... we have resulted to no choice but to fight for our very own survival here... mahathir's outburst has got some point in it.. i just wonder when only the situation can be more balanced when badawi goes home and does post mortem on the current issue..

Dr M has warned that if nothing is done, there will be a chance that the ruling govt now will lose the support of businessmen in our country... i do agree with him on this issue... business is the way to go ever since globalisatino has been embraced by our country... business keeps the money rolling and thus strengthens our economy and our ringgit as well... if you take away the rice bowl of so many businessmen around here, we will flee to other countries to do our business and when we become successful, the govt then begs us to return by giving us minor perks and incentives to lure us back... who will then return when you do not offer a helping hand at the very beginning? speaking of 'biting the finger that feeds you'... i wonder whether the 'finger that feeds' ever existed in the beginning...

this post is the very thoughts and personal idea of this blog himself.. it doesn't mean to hurt any feelings of any politicians nor show any support to any political party... i believe in such a democratic country, we must be able to express our feelings to heard..

from AP case to zakaria's case... doesn't this ring a bell to your minds now how the situation is becoming?

signing off... to those reading, your very ideas on the current matter is most welcomed...

p/s: initially my ambition was to become a politician.. those who know me long enuf know of this fact.. it was my mum who psychoed me into medical school.. i'm not complaining.. just that once in awhile, i do still have the urge to write about politics...=P

the silence

i've never thought so deeply ever in my life...

sometimes the funny thing is that when u think that everything is going on smoothly, news of the loss of one's loved one hits you so badly like a bloody sledgehammer driving thru a glass. it shatters one's hope, one's feelings and worst, one's state of mind...

and normally it catches one unawares.... like during an outing with a client, or during an opera show, or worst, during a family holiday...

just imagine the feeling of seeing your loved one slumped into unconciousness, flirting close to the door of death... it is something that one will face eventually... or one will learn eventually how to deal with it... what differentiates is...

time..

if one has lost their loved ones when they are young and naive, the loss of having a full either paternal or maternal care is lost... it's the one thing that nothing on earth can substitute that..

if one has lost their loved ones when they are already into their teens, the feeling is different. they don't have someone whom they can trust will all their hearts to share their thoughts with. they don't have someone whom they can rely upon during the darkest time of their life. there's an emptiness foreboding when u step into the doors of your house... you return to a house but no more a home.. it's just merely a house with a roof to keep u away from rain and shine...

and with the loss of a loved one, during the funeral day the person might look composed.. shakes your hand, share a word with you on how much your presence is much appreciated... but then when you give him a warm comforting hug, the body shakes and fresh tears streams down from the eye that was once calm, now shaken with new waves of anguish and sadness... worst is that there is nothing to heal and nothing you can do... sometimes now i understand why time is sometimes the best medicine...

you wonder then why didn't you said 'thank you' before they took their last breath.. why hadn't you said 'i appreciate what you've done for me'.. why hadn't you said 'i love you' before they depart from this world for good?

and when during the funeral day comes, everything comes crashing down upon you knowing real well that now your words of love falls into deaf ears... why then shed tears for a body but with no soul in it? why only cry when the coffin is being laid down into the freshly dug earth? why hadn't you shown your love openly to whoever you love most? does it really take so much 'air muka' to open up the mouth to mouth out a couple of good words to let the person you love most, know that you love them?

no matter how much you hate your loved ones, it sometimes take a little understanding to know that in life there is no place for hate... how much can you hate a person? if you pass away one day, does your hatred goes with you to the very depths of your grave? why hate a person and put so much anger and hatred in a already cruel world out there?

i don't noe when will my time be up... it maybe tmw, it maybe the next hour, or the next min, or the very moment i step to cross the road and didn't see an oncoming bus... sometimes i wonder whether the last sunrise i see is today itself..

there's nothing permanent in this world... and nothing is certain in this world... there was a time when i was crazy over money and power but how much love money can buy? how much genuine love that can be substituted with money? i guess that when one's heart is true, god takes care pretty much of the rest...

as i walked out of the funeral parlour today, i realised that the most wonderful gift that god ever gave us is our heart itself... it seems small to most of us.. but our hearts are actually big enough for love to go around, but never big enough to store hatred and greed... why use up the space for unecessary feelings? does it take a death of someone close to you to know how much the meaning of love is?

i wandered aimlessly now and then
my mind spinning wildly like a fan
till today i went and saw the light
of what have happened and what have might
will my turn be next? i asked myself
or is it when the clock strikes twelve?
but i know nothing's permanent
only a fool's mind who believe it's certain
like a flower people come and go
it blooms and wither, only time will show
but what matters is saviouring the moment
whatever time spent together, that's what is certain
i wonder now have i lived my life so fully?
for i've never thought of it so deeply
but my life now is full and that makes me happy
is that by loving my FAMILY, RELATIVES, FRIENDS, ENEMIES, and YOU my xandie..=)

ah... wunderbar...

speaking of dreams....
i had a great surprise yesterday... and it was very unexpected and very early... but so what? it was great.. that's all that matters... and it came from no other than....
*drum rolls*

XANDRA! *huggies*

yesterday, she came over after returning from singapore and guess what she bought for me?

ehehe... it's no other than....
JAY'S NEW ALBUM!!!!! STILL FANTASY....
ah... what a wonderful gift.... seriously.. i was a darn happy guy...
opening it....
thanks dear.. muaks!
seriously i din noe lor... it was a very very very early bday present and it really took me by surprise!!! ah... seriously...

VUNDERBAR!!!
*that's wonderful in german*
thank you sooo much...=)

and btw..

I WENT UP GENTING AGAIN.... seriously.... the 3rd time in 1 year?
this time it was a family trip lar... and dad and mum din enter the theme park.. they went out to jalan jalan at the *don't noe where* while me and sis went queueing up like nobody's business for rides...
ME AND SIS
REJANG FLUME RIVER RIDE (BEFORE)
REJANG FLUME RIVER RIDE (AFTER) note the wet hair and glasses!!

and for ur info... i've never seen sooooo many ppl lor at genting... i hardly can walk... i waited 1 hr plus for the rejang river flume ride which left me soaking wet... in fact, i waited an hour for every single ride... argh.. too many ppl redi... and later of the day it rained so hard i was freezing... and worst is that total rides i played?

3....

only 3 man.... rejang river, corkscrew, spinner.. that's all... and when the rain subsided, i queued up for the cyclone which in the end...
IT RAINED AGAIN...
wtf!!!!!!!! i waited half an hour and it showed no signs of stopping.. so in the end when the rain stopped, me and sis went to do sand art... l-a-m-e rite? but then it was kinda fun lar... sand art were for kiddies but then we were like being watched by sooo many tourist from middle east...
ME DOING THE SAND ART..
AND SIS TURN... can't imagine being stared at while doing the sand art.. *sweat* seriously kids stuff...=P

then we went back down at 8pm and stopped by kl town for dinner... was pretty good the dinner and by the time reach home was arleady 10.30pm... whole day out... damn tired.. neway that's all for now folks...

we din take that many pic or rather, the pic din really turn out that well.. and plus blogger is like taking ages to upload the pic.. so what the heck lar... besides camwhoring, we just walked around and ate lok lok steamboat at RM 3.50 a stick!!!!

din study during this hols man...

DIE, GONE, GONER, GONEST...
hahaha... jen lye's english... it comes with trademark... colourful colours? ehehe.. remember that...=P