xmas celebrations and reflections of the year...

dear friends,

well, i wanted to blog about this a couple of days ago but too busy.. it's like exam's on the 5th of jan and worst is that even on new year's day also have to study much less go to kl for countdown for the new year... initially i thought of going to bangsar with u noe, the 'bujang lapuk' ppl but then have to call it off cuz it's like super guilty if i do so... i'll spend the weekend watching fireworks from the tv while trying to cram blood vessels drainage and embryology of the heart...

the kitchen before the party starts...

christmas this year was great... but just the fact that knowing felicia is going for a scoliosis operation in UH on the 6th jan just put a cold towel a bit on our christmas celebration. this year aunt called in a carol from a church and they started of by singing amazing grace.. the carol group comprises of a mother and her daughters... and they were great cuz it's the songs that they sing and their voices brings warmth in a very hostile world outside... i've got to know aunt felicia becuase she's cai lin's mum... and i met cai lin way back when i was in form 1 when my aunt threw a party for her in sunway lagoon... that time she wasn't in the national swimming squad yet but after a shift from synchronise swimming to just swimming, she did very well after that... cai lin and her mum pops in during xmas now quite often and it was from christmas party that we renew our friendship... jen lye=21 yrs old with aunt felicia= 50+ yrs old.. and boy! she can really do the tango cuz she was my partner in some game for the party...

the carolling band...
but she'll be going into OT on 6th jan due to scoliosis.. it was pretty quite obvious now cuz the pain has become less and less bearable.. and when after the amazing grace was sung, she was already streaming with tears... i feel sad for her as well cuz it's a very dangerous operation and i do hope she'll make it out safely... i've gave my word to her to visit her and i will...

ah... we had of course plenty of food... great food with western blend and asian taste... it was in all great and we had turkey... boy after dinner i felt i weighed an extra couple of kilos... fine dining at it's best! =)
the eastern cuisine
the korean style food..
chinese style prawns... fuh.. i tell u... i ate 12 prawns!! clogging up my arteries...=P
a mountain of ferrero rocher and desserts..
more desserts and wines...
the turkey with cranberry sauce...
my uncle and me....
dining... that's aunt felicia with the polka dot blouse... pls pray for her ppl k? thanks...=)

i felt blessed with things that i have now with me... blessed that god has kept me safe in many ways... touch wood i've got nothing and i'm fine and both my parents and sis is fine... and i'm having a good education so that i can have a better future... of course we envy sometimes on what others have but then it's always one thing that i'll remember till today if i don't have anything that even though i crave for... god will provide enough... this christmas is a time to recollect back our memories of friendship and familial ties... and put our prayers into hope and faith that we'll do our best and live our life to the fullest with no regrets and god himself will take care of the rest..

as the year draws it's curtain behind me, i have to say that i will walk into the new year with full of hope, faith and love to share with everyone... mistakes that i've made in the past shall stay on with me as a lesson learned and not to be repeated... and sometimes even though i feel that friends around me who don't accept me as i am as in i'm somebody's friend's friend that kinda thing, i guess patience should be given and let time takes it course...

and one thing that i've learned throughout my 2006 is that time is a great healer... it can heal wounds that you never expect to heal... it can give a person some time for soul searching.. and finally it can give someone enough time to know what they really want in life... and while the clock ticks away, one keeps busy with daily chores to forget something that's painful and persevere on till one day the heart is finally ready to accept an apology that's been so difficult to come to terms with at the very beginning...

we all are humans.. we are nothing close to perfect... we throw away the bad and pick up the good so we can be a better person in some way... there's frustration throughout my year in 2006 and of course if everything was smooth, then even the good has no place for cherished memories...

finally, as the new year looms ahead, i shall walk into it with a heart full of confidence, of perseverance, of hope, of faith, and of love... i wish my family, relatives, friends and enemies alike a very happy new year... if i have ever said or did anything that have hurt your feelings in some way, i'm sorry... may your year ahead be filled with joy and laughter and happiness... and there's plenty of love to be shared around... do that and i'm sure the year ahead will be a better year that's awaiting us...

here are some undated pics about me throughout the year 2006...
posers unlimited with nina...
and with sis and nina...
the cousins.. nina, sis, and e wah...
family trip to genting...
my 21st bday....
the group who came for my bday... thanks!

steamboat at yuen's with xan, hwei wan, pei, denise and geoff..
as squash coach during my electives...
my dear jie whom i really do miss in moscow... thanks for being a great friend in many ways...

me and xan... muax!
the genting trip... wonderful memories...

with xan in wong kok char chan teng during kitty's bday...
gaik chin, me, joy and wei cheng... great senior friends from seremban... miss u ppl loads!

and finally the imu buddies whom i shall cherish and stay thru thick and thin...=)

signing off with warmest regards,
jens

p/s: i've post some pics from the party itself and of other occasions that i would like to reflect upon..
have a pleasant new year 2007..=)

My Christmas Dream

i'm all plugged into Il Divo's album and it's their 4 voices that serenades my mind this moment... even though some of their songs are in spanish but their vocals are really great... really really great...

and all i can do now is dream of attending their concert... IL DIVO LIVE IN KUALA LUMPUR... but the cheapest ticket which was priced at RM500 and even the RM800 were sold out... it was such a heart ache for me... in fact when anne told me that they were coming, i should just jump into calling ticket axess and book the ticket.. but it's like RM500.. yeah... cheapest...

and today after checking the ticket selling, the diamond seating(VIPs and Ministers, which i think it's priced at RM2000) were sold out.. left was only RM1500 and RM1000 tickets.....

and all i can do now is just to wait till the day i start working and i made myself a vow to watch them live singing... because their songs pierces deep into your soul and heart and it stays forever... i did watch their recorded concert at my aunt's place during their europe tour... they only sang 5 songs.... and i could just stare and watch the dvd replay and replay for 3 times... they were just sooo good... and they are...

as i said, it's just a christmas dream... a dream of a RM1000 ticket to watch il divo... their music brings a different genre altogether... it's different from others because they can just make music even without violins, cellos or guitars if they want to... it's their voices that keeps my notes reading on and on.... they made me enjoy music like how music is meant to be enjoyed...

don't get me wrong... i do love jay chou.... but il divo's in a class of their own... just a class of their own... untouched by anyone... it's not something that u get very often.. maybe a century you'll get a group that makes MUSIC.. yes... just with their pure voices...


to go to their concert is really a dream... perhaps sometimes dreams are called dreams because we are in a world of reality... maybe i'll get the chance to go when i start making money on my own... but till then, i guess i have to make do with watching them on dvds and listening to them on cds...

get their ancora album or their christmas album... plug it into ur ears and let them take you for a ride....

and i promise you you'll fall in love with them... just like how i did... they could make me shed tears over their singing... mesmerised... enchanted...

guess that enuf said....=) LONG LIVE IL DIVO!!

無間道

無間道 - 梁朝偉 & 劉德華

梁︰不　我不願意結束
　　我還沒有結束
　　無止境的旅途
劉︰看著我　沒停下的腳步
　　已經忘了身在何處

梁︰誰能改變　人生的長度
　　誰知道永恆有多麼恐怖
劉︰誰了解生存往往比命運還殘酷
　　只是沒有人願意認輸

梁︰我們都在不斷趕路忘記了出路
　　在失望中追求偶爾的滿足
劉︰我們都在夢中解脫清醒的苦
　　流浪在燈火闌珊處
合︰去不到終點　回到原點
　　享受　 那走不完的路

劉︰一路上演出難得糊塗
梁︰一路上回顧難得麻木
劉︰在這條親密無間的路
梁︰讓我像你
劉︰你像我
合︰怎麼會孤獨

合︰既然沒終點　回到原點
　　我想　我們都不　不在乎

無間道(粵語) Mou Gaan Dou

華︰我　要為我活下去
　　也代你活下去
　　捱極也未曾累
偉︰忘掉我　有沒有在陶醉
　　若有未來依然要去追

華︰生命太短　明日無限遠
　　始終都不比永遠這樣遠
偉︰不理會世上長路太多終點太少
　　木馬也要去繼續轉圈

華︰明明我已昨夜無間　踏盡面前路
　　夢想中的彼岸為何還未到
偉︰明明我已奮力無間　天天上路
　　我不死也為活得好
華及偉︰有沒有終點　誰能知道
　　在這塵世的無間道

華︰如何能離開失樂園
偉︰能流連忘返總是情願
華︰要去到極樂條長路遠
偉︰吃苦中苦
華︰苦中苦
偉及華︰熱永不間斷

華及偉︰快到終點　才能知道
　　又再回到起點　從頭上路

the unending road...
never ending...

complicated minds

minds...
they can be wonderful...
they can be strange...
they can be tactful...
they can be far thinking...
but worst... they can be deceiving...

please welcome...
THE DEPARTED...

i've spent today watching this show and not reading my cvs notes... i'm supposed to study embrology but heck... it's soooo good till i can't resist the tempation... and no regrets... it's the BEST.. yeah D BEST in terms of BEST movie on undercover police...

basically it's about cramming the whole wu jian dao "infernal affairs"無間道 1,2,3 into a single 2 and a half hour show... it's so copy cat but somehow i love watching these kinda undercover trying to be somebody else, influencing and playing mind games and see who cracks first... story line is EXACTLY the same man... i wonder how lame can the directors be... EXACTLY the same... the scene where leonardo di caprio was shot in the lift on the way down was like exactly how tony leung got shot too... and how his boss got thrown down from the building and killed was exactly how inspector wong died in infernal affairs..
both shows also boast a star studded cast with infernal affairs led by andy lau, tony leung, lai meng, wong chau sang, edison chen and shawn yue.. that goes as well for 'the departed' with stars like matt damon, leonardo di caprio, jack nicholson, mark wahlberg, martin sheen(from the west wing) and alec baldwin...

i love infernal affairs.. all 3 of them... becuase it's real cool.. triad members wearing shades and shooting policemen... and of course it's tony leung and andy lau man!!! super star!!!=P

it was all a repeat of infernal affairs but this time with hollywood actors.. but it was great cuz leonardo's acting was 1st class... seriously... in fact i think his expression was far better than tony leung's in infernal affairs 3... in fact this show was exactly the same but without infernal affairs 2... cuz i think they didn't have the time to remake all 1,2,3 and left out part 2.. but they managed to do a pretty good job though the story line is the same...

but what i'm impressed is that this show was actually based on true stories of undercover police officers who dwell deep into the hong kong triad back before 1997... they have to lie in order to survive... tortured to prevent the truth from leaking... and when even get the stares of own fellow policemen who cast the shadow of doubt even after the case has been resolved...

sometimes they lie till the don't know who they really are... finally matt damon (who played the role of andy lau) tries to eliminate all jack nicholson's (who played the role of eric tsang) spies in the police force only to be killed later in the end by mark wahlberg (who played the role of sam cheng)... he tries to take out all spies because all he wants to be is to be with his doctor girlfriend and to be a good guy... “我要做好人”-劉健明... and of course, he killed his very own boss, jack nicholson just like how andy lau shot eric tsang... i'm actually a big fan of infernal affairs and when i got to know hollywood's reenactment of this trilogy, i was thrilled.. but the only draw back was of course by comparing both the chinese version and the english one... but of course, we have to take into account that infernal affairs was a trilogy... the departed is just a single shooting...

and it's like a one for one substitute for acting... even dad could predict what happens next... even when matt damon face to face with jack nicholson in the crossfire of policemen, how jack nicolson found out that matt damon betrayed him (by calling his handphone) was just the same like how eric tsang called for andy lau when he was cornered...

but as i said, it's real good acting.. both matt and leonardo really did a good job... but what makes me love watching this show is that how much a person is willing to lose to go so far into what they are doing... lying to oneself at one instant and seeing a psychiatrist later to pour out his pent up feelings not knowing that the psychiatrist is actually his rival's girlfriend... ahahha... so farny lar... somehow both matt and leonardo didn't meet till the rooftop incident.. and the face off with a handgun at matt damon's head is just the same like in infernal affairs..

last but not least, for those who love infernal affairs, i suggest to give the departed a shot... try not to compare that much and let the movie take u for a ride... i of course talk too much cuz was soooooo eager to comment everytime when i see a similarity between both the chinese and english version so i already started evaluating right from the start... i guess that took pretty much of the fun away...

oh and yes... finally... as for fans of jay chou (like me), don't forget to catch his 'curse of the golden flower' coming out on 21st dec before christmas!!! oh boy! i love christmas and of course an avid fan of jay chou!!! so pls pls pls don't forget to watch ok????? you will love it!!! i promise you!!! =) ehehehhee...=)

he's so cool isn't he... you've got to agree with me...=)

christmas love

the season is here...

first of all, season greetings to everyone...

i close my eyes and let the wonderful air of christmas rejuvinate my senses and mind...

it's lovely.. it's heavenly.. no words can describe the feeling of christmas...

ah.. and thanks titus, if you are reading my blog, thank you for inviting me over for the christmas party... the story about the painting really does touch the heart... good job.. every year i'll always look forward for your christmas invitation because i know that it's after the party that i realise how christmas is such a meaningful day for everyone of us...

and today i went to berjaya times square and then later to subang parade to do some shopping... i didn't study today and i've always had this nagging feeling that if i don't study for the day, there will be a profound sense of guilt that will overwhelm me...

but today, that feeling didn't come... i find it perplexing that the guilt that once haunted me isn't there... how come? i guess becuase the season is here... and when everytime i hear christmas songs, my whole soul seems to have a profound sense of rejuvination and the elimination of tiredness and fatigue... it's good.. i love that feeling...

i left berjaya times square with my purchase of gray's anatomy at border's and then later at left subang parade with a purchase of a shoe... dad and mum bought books at mph and then only we went back...

ok... well... that's for today... however yesterday was a total contrast...

dad's car got smashed up in an accident involving 2 other cars near the ss18/ss14 U turn junction.. apparently some proton saga did the U turn without stopping and rammed into dad's car and dad's car hit another kancil which the kancil spun and landed on the divider... my dad's perdana was total wreck... and seems that need bout 2 weeks to get the repair done... but luckily everyone was ok except for mental trauma...

one thing that i hate most are the tow truck drivers... they are like vultures who come and swoop down on their weakened prey (the mentally traumatised drivers) and when they pursuade the drivers to tow their cars away, they literally force the drivers to sign an agreement which states that their cars will be taken away to their very own workshop not in favour of the driver but of the tow truckers... and boy, what a fracas took place when me and dad went to the ss17 police station to report... cuz when we arrived, there was arleady 2 other accident cases there and tow truckers were making lots of fuss about getting the car out and demanding payment...

it was a nightmare...

but all said and done, i guess it was by all means god's grace that no one was hurt and of course though the car was smashed no serious injury happened... just that lots of paper work to be done... insurance claim yada yada... but anyhow, dad's on leave till the 23rd of dec, which he will then work for 2 days then off for christmas till dec 30 where he will be going to china till 13th jan for company trip... sis will be off to hong kong on the 13th of dec and back oni on the 20th... well, looks like everyone's going SOMEPLACE but i'm just here stuck in the library preparing for cvs ica...

but nevertheless, i'm happy.... i'm happy because it's christmas... i'm happy that i'm able to celebrate christmas every year... i'm happy that my family is fine... i'm happy that xandra is fine... i'm happy that xandra's family as well is fine... i'm happy my friends are doing ok... and finally i'm happy because i want to be happy...

i love my life... and every bit of it... our life don't always promise sweet journeys but it always promises hope and dreams to be fulfilled and love to be shared...

god loves all of you... i love you too...=)

have a merry little christmas... share the love around...

yours,
jens

silence

here i am...

staring out the window as i observed the last drops of the angel's tears that fall from the heavens above... i sucked in the fresh air to rejuvinate tired eyes but it doesn't yield any effect...

i'm tired.. i'm exhausted... i'm spent...

and thinking it's just only the 2nd week into it, i wonder whether i could still plod on without having the fear in me of not knowing enough on what's going on... i wonder sometimes whether this am i cut out for this... or whether am i just driven by the little faith in me of pushing myself harder and harder...

dad has always emphasised on pushing oneself to the limit... to know the limit we can go to.. to know that with every success comes hardwork.. and with hardwork comes satisfaction...

but somehow or rather, i lack motivation... the drive in me is failing... i can sense it... is it due to the awkward time table? or is it due to the fact that i've not known the reason anymore why am i doing here at the first place... i'm here because i've chosen this path to walk.. i've no regrets... need i battle this issue with myself anymore?

sometimes u feel that everything is moving fine and you try your best to keep up... but there are times when you feel that you've given everything and still find yourself behind the things that you are supposed to know... it's like having a rug being pulled underneath you.. you fall even though you have had a firm footing on what you perceive as a solid ground...

it's darn frustrating... and it's eating me up bit by bit...

no doubt i've become very kiasu when i entered imu... perhaps i'm driven to study hard because i know that i've made up my mind and i'm committed into delivering the results... somehow or rather i don't want to lose the real me along the way... i'm a crazy guy... i laugh till my belly ache and tears flow out, i sing aloud trying to impress everyone with my singing but only to know it rained the hardest on that day, i laugh at my own jokes at times, i tried imitating david beckham's free kick only to see my shoe flying off and hit jolyn's head... but somehow, this me has been slipping away without me realising it... or now that i've sensed it, is that what is called by 'growing up'?

but i miss the old me... when i could sing and the whole class boo-ed me, when i made jokes but nobody laughs except me and to laugh out loud when no one's laughing...

but now, all i can think of is bruit, paradoxical embolism, hyperplastic arteriolosclerosis...

have my life took a sudden change now without me realising it? that i was funny and i don't have to try to be funny and now i'm trying to be funny even though i'm no more funny anymore...

sounds wierd? or am i still wierd?

i can still run 5km without stopping... but i wonder can my brains run 5 more weeks before cvs ica without stalling further?

i've always counted on faith in everything i do... and i put my whole heart into it... in everything.. yes.. in everything...

i hope faith hasn't left me in the dark alone now...

i'm a believer and i believe in myself, i believe in everything i do... and most of all i believe in my very own whisperings of my heart...

i reckon that should be enough...

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!!

菊花台...

and finally the moment that i've been waiting for since his last debut in 2005 with initial D...

WELCOME JAY CHOU IN CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER!!!

he's here!! he's here!! damn.. i'm such a fan of jie lun.. he's just soooooooooo super duper cool... 21st december!! everyone take note!! i'm soo going to buy his ticket... it will be good especially with chow yun fatt and gong li in it..

actually when i came to hear this song in his new album i stumbled into it by chance actually.. it was up in you tube when i was surfing for his new album and then only i realised that he was already involved in this project by zhang yimou and playing a role beside GONG LI... u can't imagine the fact that u are acting beside a legendary actress who shot to fame with 'farewell my concubine' in 1993... i'm also a fan of gong li and zhang zi yi ok...

then the icing on the cake was of course none other than the rising star ZHOU ZIE LUN... he's the best... better than the rest!!! ahaha... been watching short clippings preview of the movie on youtube and sony pictures... he's not so kaku like before in inital D.. but then come to think of it, takumi fujiwara is memang the *blur* kind so suit jay's personality in some way...

but this time it's a different ball game.. thinking of jay's acting skills in sword play and spear play.. boy! i'm already high in adrenaline just waiting to watch his 2nd movie... i use to loathe the sight of jay at the beginning but he's definitely getting better by the day/album/ movie... whatever...

so guys do watch his show k!!!

i promise you it's gonna be great.. just like the song.. which i can spend hours listening to the playbacks without getting bored..

jay rawks!!!=)

i wanted to sing this song for the friday nite performance but then... my singing sucks.. aih.. guess i'm just limited to bathroom singing...=P

菊花台

曲：周杰倫
詞：方文山

妳　的淚光　柔弱中帶傷

慘白的月彎彎　勾住過往

夜　太漫長　凝結成了霜

是誰在閣樓上　冰冷的絕望

雨　輕輕彈　朱紅色的窗

我一生在紙上　被風吹亂

夢　在遠方　化成一縷香

隨風飄散　妳的模樣

＊菊花殘　滿地傷　妳的笑容已泛黃

花落人斷腸　我心事靜靜躺

北風亂　夜未央　妳的影子剪不斷

徒留我孤單　在湖面　成雙＊

花　已向晚　飄落了燦爛

凋謝的世道上　命運不堪

愁　莫渡江　秋心拆兩半

怕妳上不了岸　一輩子搖晃

誰　的江山　馬蹄聲狂亂

我一身的戎裝　呼嘯滄桑

天　微微亮　妳輕聲的嘆

一夜惆悵　如此委婉

REPEAT＊＊

我爱你周杰倫!!!!!!!!!!!

just thoughts...

ah...

wondered what does a team manager do during any event? especially without proper sleep the nite before coupled with community clinic visit the day before?

STONE...

ah... wondered how i got into this mess? not mess actually.. just that prob without proper sleep i was just stoning there kau kau watching the U-17 charges from subang play their respective games and making sure that no one goes missing and go astray...

so here i am early this morning leaving my house at 7.45 am fetching my sis for the opening match at 8.30am and at the same time over look all the subang team players who are playing before leroy comes at 11am... not enuf sleep and driving daily to uni and to jinjang prob has taken it's toll.. once i reached there, i was just craving for my daily milo kosong panas with fried mee/nasi lemak/ curry mee/ whatever to satisfy my bfast hunger but then have to stay there until the whole 4 players finish playing in this team event...

then i rushed to jalan gasing to tapau 2 packs of nasi lemak and rushed back to astaka.. then oni i realised that had i leave 10 mins later, there's a stall set up in astaka selling food.. aih... waste time and petrol oni.. but nasi lemak was great... *cheng cheng cheng*... =P

and all i did today was just wasting time watching them play and the SINGAPOREANS play as well...

speaking of SPOREANS.. no offence to my sporean friends ok.. there are a nice bunch of ppl... really.. honestly.. but i guess their kiasuness are so inevitable that i sometimes wonder is there a specific gene that codes for kiasuism in their DNA... ahaha.. speaking on medical terms... but then u ahve to admit it... ok.. the players stay at hilton pj and of course, since so near to astaka they would obviously be there as early as posisble...

but the thing was.. they sent in a total of 8-9 teams and every court in astaka was just taken up by them...

i can't believe it myself either... 8 courts ALL by sporeans.. and our msians still stood there like dungu waiting for them to finish warming up.. one thing for sure i know is that once u enter there's no exit unless being chased by the tournament comittee.. and there i was standing there trying to look courteous and ask them to scoot off... since btw it's ASTAKA PJ.. not some Raffles Sports Hall.. eh.. even we msians when play in spore also know what's the meaning of leaving an empty court as a courtesy for we are the host of the event...

and i have to say as well, the players are damn LAN SI!!

ok.. today wasn't really a good day lar.. telling honestly lar... and the best part of the day came when milo van which was the official drink came to set up the free milo give away like they always do in any mbpj tournament (except for pj open), the commotion and the crowd gathering around the tap for some small cup which i think was less than 3 Oz, was shocking...

those days i have to admit even myself couldn't care less about not drinking thru cup and POURING AWAY MY WATER IN MY BOTTLE TO FILL IT WITH FREE MILO...

now i understand why was it so embarrasing to do so since i've already grown up... and worst is that u see the U-17 players as well doing that.. shit! i mean it's just milo man... go home and ask ur mum to make for u.. and like they haven't seen a milo tong before lar... all gather around and go for refills after refills... ish.. i think i waited for 3 mins before i got my turn...

so basically the day was just watching others play, talking to the kaki lang squash gang, playing 3 quarters, and warming up the players with drills before each of them start their games... so much so for the day.. best part was i brought my Lily's to read about ECG and guess what.. nothing obviously entered... wondered how come the kiasuness of not studying for 1 day is eating me up that badly... have i got infected as well?

okok.. so tha'ts just about it.. i'm just ranting aimlessly for no apparent reason just htat my itchly little fingers crave to type something in my blog... as i said earlier, it's my diary and trying hard to keep up with it but duh... it's not updated regularly though i've been trying hard to do so...

and the sad thing is that i'm damn bloody sure i can't make it into the sel team for sukma lar.. even though they made it U-23 and in 2008 i'll be 23, but since i saw how the other sel team players play i guess i could even lose to the last player in sel team A... i guess that's why i'm not in bjss but imu though they share the same location..=P

ok.. back to ECG and thani's lecture.. damn it lar pbl 2 is on monday and i haven't found a damn thing yet... i normally do my pbl thru books like i did for the previous one but now i guess i need the help of the internet even though it's not really reliable source of information.. haih.. i hope my fuel is enuf to keep me going...

that's all for now peeps...=)

p/s: oh.. and being so frustrated and been STONING prac the whole day and not being able to play myself, i entertained myself with a total 12 cups of milo and before i left, i EMPTIED my 500ml SPRITZER BOTTLE AND FILLED THEM WITH MILO much to the dismay of aunty mary...
what the heck... not like i'm the ONLY one doing it... was fun cuz reminded me of the old days... speaking of embarassment... ooooppppsss!!!!=P