aun woon

first of all, thanks for the dinner... it was fantastic and had a wonderful time meeting back friends that i've lost touch with and to catch up with you...

we've known each other for quite some time redi.. but mostly our friendship was based on chia woon-khye theng and my mum and ur mum in buying-selling house...

little do i have in mind that we'll just end up in the same uni and having to say good bye again since the last time i said bye to u was when u left to aussie after form 3...

i remembered those days when u were a prefect in secondary school and i used to kacau u and ur mum called my mum up saying that i always kacau u and u complained... ahaha... then i kena scolding and that was i felt the last time i really talked to u about things... cuz suddenly u din seem all that friendly to me after all...

then u went back... and once in awhile, ur parents and mine with my sis had dinner together and had catching up but i never did went for those gatherings... but when i was stuck in cold hostile russia and wanted to come back here, u were there to help me in the application into imu... it was such a hard time for me, being there, and calling back to my mum and my mum, as u noe, frantically searched and clueless at times...

but u were there to aid my mum, and helped me into talking to may kuan, whom now i've made close friends with, and ur mum, accompanying mine, went to imu to discuss about things... i have to say, it was such a great thing to do as a friend, being that time u were already in sem4 and bz with selectives and stuff... and u helped me even though i haven't seen u for nearly 3 years and with a bad history of kacau-ing u in school, it was seriously unexpected on my part to get such help from u... and sometimes i do look back and i have to say at times i don't even dare to call myself as ur friend cuz i did nothing but kacau u and u still helped me when i was in dire straits...

and u came over to my place with titus and talked to me cuz at that time, i was by all times the lowest point of my life... i remembered saying that i'm just useless and u said 'no.. ur not useless, just a test to noe ur true strength within urself'.. and titus just reassured me over and over again saying it's ok, u'll be better here, and get back ur old self and eveyrthing will be fine... i'm truly blessed with friends like both of u...

u noe, when at the party, when the rest sang u ur bday song, it's us, the subang jaya ppl who will still call u aun woon though u were known better as cindy in imu.. cuz u're still the aun woon that the sj ppl noe...

and now it's time for u to leave to jefferson.. so many things have passed and finally u've got what u've wanted... god really did bless u with ur change of option from sban to pms and blessed u with the mental strength and knowledge to take the usmle and pass it...

somehow, along the way, u've taught me the strength to carry on even though at times everything is against u.. and along the way, i've taught u how to chilling abit, eat more cuz u look anorexic, and how to reverse ur car at a tight angle when going off from my hse! haha...

perhaps when u come back and being known as dr. soon aun woon, then we'll look back at the days over a cup of tea when we both were shy to see each other in school, to when u told ur mum i was like jerk kacau-ing u, and till the day u left to the states to chase ur dreams...

or perhaps even u decide to stay there cuz ur *ahem* is there now and don't wanna come back.. ahaha.. it was then at the party that i found out that my friend wen yin is already married.. who noes u'll be next? ahhaa... jk! but do know that u've always been a great friend and i've got nothing to offer but words of encouragement in settling down there getting accustomed to the life there... i'm sure u'll do fine.. moreover he's there rite? ahaha...

god bless u always aun woon and may u succeed in whatever dreams u are chasing...

all the best!

my mum , aun woon, sister, titus and er... forgot his name redi...titus and me... buddies and friends for life...

ur 21st bday cake... the 'key' to ur freedom... do use it well and chase ur dreams...ur dad, u, celine and ur mum...

the sj ppl.. we'll always be there for u... friends forever...
god bless you.. take care wherever u are and all the best! friends forever!~~

追

追 - 張國榮

-什么都说不出了，拿一首歌给大家听听 -

這一生　也在進取　這分鐘　卻掛念誰　
我會說　是唯獨你　不可失去　
好風光　似幻似虛　誰明人生樂趣　
我會說　為情為愛　仍然是對

＊誰比你重要　成功了敗了也完全無重要　
誰比你重要　狂風與暴雨都因你燃燒

一追再追　只想追趕生命裡一分一秒　
原來多麼可笑　你是真正目標
一追再追　追蹤一些生活最基本需要
原來早不缺少　WO..HA..　
有了你　即使平凡卻最重要
（＠只得你　會叫我彷彿人群裡最重要）

好光陰　縱沒太多　一分鐘又如何
會與你　共同渡過　都不枉過
瘋戀多　錯誤更多　如能重新做過　
我會說　願能為你　提前做錯

Repeat ＊（＠）

有了你　即使沈睡了　也在笑

我...

不用追了..

勿忘我...

my best quotes

if you can't fight on for yourself, who else will fight with you?

it's the character that's important. i can raise a million dollar baby but it's useless when the baby throws all the money away later in life.- dad

we are at the tails end of our life. you have to strive on for your own success.- dad

Aerith: You came. Even though you're about to break. That's a good sign.
Aerith: So... Why did you come?
Cloud: I think... I wanna be forgiven. Hmmm. More than anything.

sometimes the hardest person to forgive is to forgive yourself. have u ever wondered mistakes that you've made but the person who was hurt forgives you but u just can't forgive urself for making those mistakes?

but, everyday comes as a challenge... and the only thing that makes me go to bed soundly is that i've given my best in everything that i do... not an ounce less... so i hope and pray that the day that i can't forgive my own self will never come again...

there's a saying that goes:
'i swim as hard as i can and as fast as i can, and the sea takes the rest'

but have you ever wondered, to those who rescue others, they themselves are the ones who needed to be 'rescued'? it's such an irony that those who have given their hearts and soul to rescue someone, are actually the most vulnerable in their hearts just waiting to be rescued by another person... it's something that i've come to know after all these while...

they rescue other people because they have made a mistake and can't seem to forgive themselves for it... but little do they know that they will be the ones in return who needed to be rescued at the beginning...

it's such an irony, crude, twist of fate that such things happen all around us.. it's tough and unfair.. but sometimes we do need some rescuing ourselves after rescuing others...

that's if you know what i've been talking about...

don't we?

nostalgia

i have just taken a look into the past... a past that wasn't too long ago and sometimes once you've seen the pics everything just comes back to you and you sit back and watch wonderfully as pics and pics fly by...

but the sad thing is that you can only look, prob watch a little video or two, laugh, make some comments on your very own self of your own stupidity and think back of what prob went thru your head when you did such things...

but i guess in the end, it's the tears that floods my eye..

i don't know why.. it's just that 2003-2004 was the best part of my life... the friends i had in u6sc4... it was a mutt set of class with none of us belonging from the school student itself... our class were of transfer students.. 26 of us and none of us came from samad.. we made up of subang, sri aman, assunta, tmn sri muda and one from as far as sg buloh..

we laughed, we sang and we cried together... we fought pass stpm holding hand in hand... we went to holidays pouring everything out in our hearts knowing very well it was going to be the last holiday that we are going to have... after that we lead our separate ways and we are all over the world now.. separation is hard.. separation takes us to different places so when we come back someday, we have memories and experience to share with.. but separation brings tears..

i've never been such a person who look back and shed tears over friends who come and go... but my form 6 friends, yeah.. i do have a soft spot for them.. we didn't get together well during the early days, but then bit by bit, we became close like a family... a family of 26... somehow when i looked in yin's profile, our group profile, and pics on bkt tinggi, redang, selesa hills, somehow it's just hard to phatom the fact that it's arleady in 2007.. and the holidays that took place were back in 2003..

i miss being picked by mahendran to give my thoughts on open issues, i miss being scolded by tiong for mischevious in class, i miss having recess with the gang and tapau whatever food we can tapau and eat in front of norashikin. and among all, i miss the laughter of everyone of us when we went from house to house for cny, or even having a simple tea at wong kok... i want those back.. i want it back badly... when you look back on things that you have done and you know you've given your heart into it, you just don't want it to end... it was the days where you just don't have to think what you say, and just say cuz your friends know it's just the bloody jen lye who say things jsut for the sake of saying it...

it's been 4 years...

but memories are fresh.. note 'are'... cuz i don't want them to be in the past tense.. i don't want them to end..

yeah.. i just don't want them to end...

it's funny when at that moment, you just seem that you can skip parties or gatherings.. but now, i want to go for all.. cuz i don't noe what the morrow brings.. whether i will be healthy to see my friends again or whether i'm still happy enough to smile and sail through the days of darkness... somehow now i just want to be involved...

if i had one wish...

i'll roll back the clock to when i was still wearing that green pants and white shirt... with pleasure i will trade anything that i have with me to bring back those moments that i have enjoyed and inprinted in my memories till my breath take me away...

if have to say what i want to do now, if i had the power within me, if i had the wish and have my wish granted, is to bring back those wonderful memories that we spent together through thick and thin, and through ups and downs...

because....

you've all been a part of my memories and life... it was just too good to have it come to and end though in every beginning has an end... it's just sad that we have all went our separate ways... and we've all grown up... perhaps when we sit back someday over a cup of tea, we can still picture the sounds and expression of kitty with his laughter, syn and chi with their antiques, the subangites with their kiasuness and above all, a class which had so much bond to be just forgotten and eaten up in time...

maybe i'm too emo... but i have to say, of late, i've been losing this craziness in me that i've shared with you all back then... perhaps looking at this pics can bring back that joy of nothingness in me...

it was a wonderful chapter in my life... and i have to qualms saying that... my schooling life is complete with you ppl...

thank you U6Sc4...

our gp picture in the sea...
on the way to redang...
at some cove where we were suppose to look for shooting stars...
at selesa hill...
my 18th bday where i got smashed with cake cream.. my face didn't look the same after that thanks to yin and chi...
at redang sleeping at the edge of the cove trying to catch the sun to rise...
our pic in redang..
and this is in bkt tinggi.. we did have our midnite jungle trekking and i saw a shooting star...
me with yin and chi...
in the sea!!!! how much i love this pic..
and this...
our dinner at kwai lam... i think this was our last real gathering dinner together before we went separate ways... the whole 20 of us were here...
frozen in time.. everlasting memories...
our run at kiara hills...
dissecting rats at tong's class...
when chris and yin both shared the same bday... look at the love!! ahaha... jk!
at gerald's bday.. we practically crash the house.. my mum was there too!! this pic was taken by my mum...
our gang here in redang...
before we departed...
on the way back...
when i was contemplating to jump from the boat roof... looks like damn low but act it's 5 meters high!!
and of course, chris, gerald, and me jumped!!!

when we all tried cramming into that small little window of the japanese hse to take pics...
when i was so carefree and didn't care one shit...
the family at berjaya resort in redang...
the family at bukit tinggi...

p/s: this post is dedicated to the family of U6Sc4... forever we shall stand together... some of us prob moved on and when you look back at these pics, the nostalgic moments just floods back our memories... some, who like me, who shall always look back and remember those days and moments where we shared our bond of friendship and family... everyone has a place called a sanctuary... and i have mine... and mine lies in these pics that we all once took when we were carefree and still had a warm heart in us...

signing off..
jens

hearts

i've came to understand that will be times when what have you done things that has touched someone's heart along the way... it's good sometimes to know that you have done so, but there might be some circumstances where you know you won't hear that...

but what's in the heart that matters...

someone who is always there ready to extend their help has touched the hearts of others.. but the true question lies in those who are willing to open their hearts and give back in return...

so ask urselves...

who will you touch?

and of course the ultimate question

who will touch you?

i guess the latter somehow in your hearts you know it very well.. though at times you can't say it out personally cuz maybe you don't want them to misunderstand.. but in this hard world of loneliness and emptiness, it's good to acknowledge those who have somehow made you feel like you... feel like your original self.. make you laugh and do crazy things for that's just being yourself... and it's just something nice to hear if you've told them that...

'you've touched me'

Amazing Grace

Sometimes you just feel that you are alone fighting all odds urself.. till i finally heard this song that once a good friend of mine sent to me a long time ago... and then you'll finally understand that sometimes we are not alone always...

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.