沉默是久了点谁该先说再见
虽然我早有了准备然而矛盾总难免
我以为能实现让你再快乐点
这些话说到了唇边忍不住泪流满面
真的很难两全其美我们己经试过多少回
避开了争辩却开始了另一种疏远
说一个谎言圆一个谎言我们爱的多么危险
谁也没发现是自己让这份感情毁灭
因为都想被安慰竟然以为承诺能减少眼泪
忘了真心的感觉早已经面目全非
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
friends for life...
the camera starts with me playing the guitar... with the song 'when you say nothing at all' starting at the background.. i see myself strumming the guitar and the few of us who were there in redang bay having hell lots of fun... it was the 2nd day i remember and we had time to kill before we went for snorkeling and then deep sea fishing... it was still so clear... and we had sai poh, gerald, kitty, brendon, chris, mei zhing, yee ching, suen chi, syn yin, li ying, yee may in the room...
the camera starts with me singing off tune, 'it's amazing how you can speak rite to my heart.....' then the group joins in... and then the camera shifts to kitty and mei zhing... who made obnoxious changes to the songs by adding my name and sai poh's name in it... and me... like we are gay partners lidat... ahaha...
then the camera turns to gerald and sai poh while it brendon's face and chris comes into the picture... chris was trying to say something to kitty but i can't really put a finger to what he was saying... the music starts. and suen chi's face as well as yee may comes into view... a finger of peace which i think was from wendy came into the view as the camera was facing yee ching...
'the smile on your face lets me know that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me, the touch of your hands say you'll catch me whenever i fall, you say it best, when you say nothing at all..............'
then it ended up in a pillow fight... with gerald throwing his pillow to brendon and brendon hits chris in the head..
the video then stops.....
this was a little more than 2 years back... i remembered like it was yesterday... the laughters... the song, the lame jokes. the gay times.. whatever you want to call it.. then like it started, it ended just like that... all of us went separate ways, with brendon to uk, suen chi and syin yin in spore and the rest are here... but half of the gang in that room during that day will graduate by next year april...
boy....... how time flies.
i met up with wuan zhu today for breakfast and over bfast we talked about how life was then, when we were carefree regardless of what we do... she is leaving to spore next week after just finishing graduating from bristol 2 months back from law. she got a job in spore and following her boyfriend there to settle down... it was a nice meeting and at one point we were talking politics and economy.. and then it occured to me...
JL: eh.. we talking politics now! i can't believe it i'm having this conversation with you.
WZ: yeah of course. how time flies. gone were the days when it was about gossips and stuff! i remembered when u used to call me and talk rubbish for an hour!
yeah.. time really flies... and i guess it's left with just memories to take us through and like today after i met up for a hearty bfast, i went home then followed mum to sunway pyramid to buy sushi... then over dinner we were talking about how life will be in sban then...
suddenly as what wuan zhu said, how comes a time of separate worries... it's no more about achieving grades.. it's about carrying yourself out there to let ppl know we are worth every bit of penny paid for and then money comes into issue...
money.. $$$ *bling blings* yes... heck.. i don't even know whether dad will use my ptptn money during phase 2 in sban or not.. haih... money...
but then like now, like today, a chat with a very old friend, i looked back on pictures. group photos. videos.. things that all of our form6-ers did when we were together.. like how fat was i last time and got teased like mad for being gay with gerald cuz he's my best buddy...
then this video i saw brought me back my smile.. a smile that i know comes straight from my heart.. a smile so genuine that at the end of the video, i could actually cry because at least i knew i had some really fun and bashful crazy time back then... and it was worth doing my 2 years as a form 6-er... we went thru shit, thru mud, thru every damn dirt and sweat to finish up our 2 years together... that holiday in redang was our last... and yeah, it stayed and it remained close to heart...
i remembered how it was last time that i really wanted to do form 6 and not a levels... surprising huh... that i went in together with gerald, chris and brendon as the subang gang, and these guys i've known since primary school... with gerald my longest buddy since 4 yrs old.. we shared the same class from form 1 till form 6... a good 8 years together.. we know every damn bloody bad habit each and every one had...
but even the best song got to end, all wonderful things have to come to a close and as i look back, this video shows how much we have moved on in our own lives as we go thru our university days... then we will be outside into the cruel world, fighting for our dreams, holding it hard and keeping our heads level to what the challenges might bring...
but like always, this i've always held close in heart.. is a sanctuary of memories of good friendship bonding... never ending, never fading, close to heart...
i drop a tear, but i guess all hard times during studies back then was all worth it... and this video here, i dedicate to U6Sc4 gang... take care my dear friends...
the camera starts with me singing off tune, 'it's amazing how you can speak rite to my heart.....' then the group joins in... and then the camera shifts to kitty and mei zhing... who made obnoxious changes to the songs by adding my name and sai poh's name in it... and me... like we are gay partners lidat... ahaha...
then the camera turns to gerald and sai poh while it brendon's face and chris comes into the picture... chris was trying to say something to kitty but i can't really put a finger to what he was saying... the music starts. and suen chi's face as well as yee may comes into view... a finger of peace which i think was from wendy came into the view as the camera was facing yee ching...
'the smile on your face lets me know that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me, the touch of your hands say you'll catch me whenever i fall, you say it best, when you say nothing at all..............'
then it ended up in a pillow fight... with gerald throwing his pillow to brendon and brendon hits chris in the head..
the video then stops.....
this was a little more than 2 years back... i remembered like it was yesterday... the laughters... the song, the lame jokes. the gay times.. whatever you want to call it.. then like it started, it ended just like that... all of us went separate ways, with brendon to uk, suen chi and syin yin in spore and the rest are here... but half of the gang in that room during that day will graduate by next year april...
boy....... how time flies.
i met up with wuan zhu today for breakfast and over bfast we talked about how life was then, when we were carefree regardless of what we do... she is leaving to spore next week after just finishing graduating from bristol 2 months back from law. she got a job in spore and following her boyfriend there to settle down... it was a nice meeting and at one point we were talking politics and economy.. and then it occured to me...
JL: eh.. we talking politics now! i can't believe it i'm having this conversation with you.
WZ: yeah of course. how time flies. gone were the days when it was about gossips and stuff! i remembered when u used to call me and talk rubbish for an hour!
yeah.. time really flies... and i guess it's left with just memories to take us through and like today after i met up for a hearty bfast, i went home then followed mum to sunway pyramid to buy sushi... then over dinner we were talking about how life will be in sban then...
suddenly as what wuan zhu said, how comes a time of separate worries... it's no more about achieving grades.. it's about carrying yourself out there to let ppl know we are worth every bit of penny paid for and then money comes into issue...
money.. $$$ *bling blings* yes... heck.. i don't even know whether dad will use my ptptn money during phase 2 in sban or not.. haih... money...
but then like now, like today, a chat with a very old friend, i looked back on pictures. group photos. videos.. things that all of our form6-ers did when we were together.. like how fat was i last time and got teased like mad for being gay with gerald cuz he's my best buddy...
then this video i saw brought me back my smile.. a smile that i know comes straight from my heart.. a smile so genuine that at the end of the video, i could actually cry because at least i knew i had some really fun and bashful crazy time back then... and it was worth doing my 2 years as a form 6-er... we went thru shit, thru mud, thru every damn dirt and sweat to finish up our 2 years together... that holiday in redang was our last... and yeah, it stayed and it remained close to heart...
i remembered how it was last time that i really wanted to do form 6 and not a levels... surprising huh... that i went in together with gerald, chris and brendon as the subang gang, and these guys i've known since primary school... with gerald my longest buddy since 4 yrs old.. we shared the same class from form 1 till form 6... a good 8 years together.. we know every damn bloody bad habit each and every one had...
but even the best song got to end, all wonderful things have to come to a close and as i look back, this video shows how much we have moved on in our own lives as we go thru our university days... then we will be outside into the cruel world, fighting for our dreams, holding it hard and keeping our heads level to what the challenges might bring...
but like always, this i've always held close in heart.. is a sanctuary of memories of good friendship bonding... never ending, never fading, close to heart...
i drop a tear, but i guess all hard times during studies back then was all worth it... and this video here, i dedicate to U6Sc4 gang... take care my dear friends...
the gang having one last hurrah!
prankster kitty!
best buddies!
Friday, October 19, 2007
KND!
my old junkie car entered the service center on wed and oni today can collect... hospitalised due to multiple prob... and just i got a call from them and guess what...
the tulan bill came up to RM690!
wtf......... i really KND by them and when dad called and asked why the hell so damn ex...
I ALSO KND again.......
what they did was...
a) change timing belt
b) change lock of my back left door
c) change brake pads
d) change black oil and filter
e) change fan belt
and plus manual work and stuff = whopping ass price!!!
my car is old redi.. what to do... haih... btw later i have to send to air cond guy... this car air cond is now not blowing enuf cold air during a hot day... what the hell~
haih... a car is a liability... luckily it isn't some honda, volvo, or even toyota.. if its that, i lagi KND!
what a day...
the tulan bill came up to RM690!
wtf......... i really KND by them and when dad called and asked why the hell so damn ex...
I ALSO KND again.......
what they did was...
a) change timing belt
b) change lock of my back left door
c) change brake pads
d) change black oil and filter
e) change fan belt
and plus manual work and stuff = whopping ass price!!!
my car is old redi.. what to do... haih... btw later i have to send to air cond guy... this car air cond is now not blowing enuf cold air during a hot day... what the hell~
haih... a car is a liability... luckily it isn't some honda, volvo, or even toyota.. if its that, i lagi KND!
what a day...
Saturday, October 13, 2007
when you're gone...
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
mMm
i miss you. i really do. muax!
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
mMm
i miss you. i really do. muax!
Sunday, October 07, 2007
dilemma
the other day leroy msg me and asked whether i want to play national u-23 from 5-7th nov...
u'll prob wonder why i'm not registering... of course i would! until i found out that it's like 7th nov is repro exam...
wtf.............................................................................
and then when say play in duta and not in jalil....
wtf............................................................................. *again*
i wonder i won't make it till the 7th nov game also... prob play on the 5th nite and 6th nite oni.... and repro on the whole oni makes 3.5% of our eos5 marks...
should i go? should i not?
i really want to... not like next year i will get the chance to play also... but that means i might miss menopause and rohini's lecture cuz i think we'll just play the whole day...
aduh... i'm seriously in a dilemma!!!! gulps*
u'll prob wonder why i'm not registering... of course i would! until i found out that it's like 7th nov is repro exam...
wtf.............................................................................
and then when say play in duta and not in jalil....
wtf............................................................................. *again*
i wonder i won't make it till the 7th nov game also... prob play on the 5th nite and 6th nite oni.... and repro on the whole oni makes 3.5% of our eos5 marks...
should i go? should i not?
i really want to... not like next year i will get the chance to play also... but that means i might miss menopause and rohini's lecture cuz i think we'll just play the whole day...
aduh... i'm seriously in a dilemma!!!! gulps*
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