Tuesday, April 08, 2008

'he's a useless chap. good for nothing'

htin aung said this to me when i we had a tutor tutee meeting when i was in sem 2.

until today, i finally know that it's not just the grades or thinking that i know everything is good enough. perhaps there's a chinese saying that goes 'eat salt more than i eat rice' which does hold some truth.

it's so true his words. at that time i was really angry with him because he said to me in front of other juniors who were having csu that time and it was so horrible i didn't know how to react.

but now, i'm humbled by his words of wisdom. because simply, i have none. i'm raw, naive and an ego maniac who in actual fact doesn't know much. i do not have the perseverance to keep on studying, i have failed his expectations.

if it wasn't for him, i think i'd already dropped out of imu. honest. he's not in the dark on his tutee's activities, knowing fully well who does what and the grades that we get. honestly, he's the father of us all in imu.

i've regretted not able to listen to him earlier, not able to learn that there are so many things that i do not know and to pay heed to his advice. now staring at the whole pile of notes that i'm bound to finish, it seemed impossible to complete everything and do well. but dr, it's you that motivated me to continue our fight and never to give up in chasing knowledge like how you've done before.

yeah. looking back, i'm a worthless chap. i really am. thank you for pointing that out to me for i know where to work on now. i work hard not to be better than others but to be the best out of myself. thank you for pulling me back whenever i was astray.


Monday, March 31, 2008

it's 11.50pm now and i have to wake up tmw at 8am to go to skool.. exam's this fri and heck, i just can't go to bed... i just can't close my eyes and take a wink.. hell is that i don't sleep now, tmw after a meal i'm just gonna crash and doze off like usual..

i haven't been blogging awhile and i thought an update would be good..=)

first things first, happy bday angelene teo ling zhi... 生日快乐玲智!! turned 21 redi... it's a big day i know and i hope u had great fun on this day.. btw u still owe me lotsa pics.. ahaha...

second thing is that i applaud the fact that the opposition running the selangor government has so far done a good job. the flood lights that illuminate the park right in front of my hse is working and that the selangor govt has approved that the first 20 cu m of water be given free. which means this levy is bound to help many middle income house hold. though u might think it's just 20 cu m but it means alot due to the increase in development of residential houses.

when abdullah stepped into the PM post, he was given a 100 day grace period to get things going. his promises and his machinery in the running of the government was supposedly tailored to bring corruption and money laundering into the light failed miserably. now, since the opposition has taken office, i strongly believe that they should be given this grace period to set the mechanism right, especially the selangor government has never been run before by an opposition party. this is a major step in the vast and ever changing political scenario that is about to enfold.

umno is fighting a war within. we've seen the perlis MB and terengganu MB being selected based on the choice of the sultan. now, we must always remember that the perlis sultan was our previous agong and the terengganu sultan is now our agong. certainly BN must have stepped on the royalty's toes for them to go against the candidate that was chosen by the PM. never in history that such a commotion of choice of candidacy for MB is being played to the public. i remembered during the days of mahathir, he ruled with an iron fist and those who stood by his path had their political career put into oblivion. the power of the sultan and agong was challenged upon by mahathir himself and i believe, the sultans now due to the turn of the tide have realised it's now or never to exercise their rights again. this is a signal to the ruling coalition on what powers that are left of the sultans (which was taken away) that can influence the lineup of the state ruling.

however i must say that the sultans have somehow stood by their rights and appointed the MP of their choice and went against the PM's decision. for more than a week, it was claimed that idris and ahmad both were the MP. in law, ahmad said is the rightful MB because he was sworned in by the agong. idris jusoh however had 22 exco backing him and pledged not to work with ahmad said.

for once in the malaysian political scene, rapid waves of change is seen here. both are from the BN and the BN is fighting a major war within themselves. this war actually is from the UMNO-putera members specifically. and the fear of losing important ties in major GLC makes alot of the politician edgy, for once they weren't in power, many bureaucracy would render their application of contracts difficult.

after much drama enfolded, ahmad said finally is said to be backed fully by abdullah badawi and that he quashed all qualms on his stability of his PM seat which was rumoured to be eyed upon by a few top notch politicians. and recently the muhyiddin idea of abolishing the quota system in the next upcoming UMNO general election has created another stir among the politicians who are hardcore AAB and those against him. this notion was shot down instantly by Muhd Taib saying that the system was still applicable and had no necessity to be abolished.

najib however took a middle stance and said that the final decision is to be made by the UMNO supreme council. he stressed that his personal views are irrelevant at this point of time.

the tussle for the top leadership post is obvious and it doesn't take a layman or even a secondary school going student to understand that the UMNO is in dire straits for a change within. we must also bear in mind that the revival of Anwar's political career is coming soon(his suspension from active politics ends on april) and many has said that his wife, azizah will pave way for him to launch a political comeback barring all unforseen circumstances. a by election will take place and it will not be long before anwar is back in the parliment.

this is a new era of politics. the mainstream media should pay heed to this and report more transparently on the ongoing issues. in order for them to be in this business, news must be precise and of no sense of biasness. they have learned that now the internet knows no bounds. we are able to think rationally and not to follow blindly.

in every field, be it in economics, financing or even in the medical field, a breakthrough or a major change is inevitable in every 30-40 years. this happens when the cycle is completed and the wheels are now already in motion. lets just see our voice of PKR-DAP-PAS prove their mettle in the successful ruling in 5 states. our eyes are on them now. and if they deliver, we will expecting a continuation of this change in many more elections to come.

it's 12.28. and it's time to go to bed.

yadav-csu-joe pereira-zuhrah beevi

it's a lethal combination. dying for a shot of valium/phenobarbitone..... the list continues...

oh and yes... i've been itching for so long to do some shooting.. and yeah.. something random...

i love GLOCK 19!!!!! i love 9x19mm luger parabellum. the bullet doesn't have the large size of an .45 ACP which eats up space in the mag therefore fitting as much as 15 rounds per mag, on stock recoil, if you keep ur hands 'choked down' and have a firm hold, this gun shoots magnificently. and the design is just so simple, (the frame, the recoil spring, and the barrel) that's all that's needed to be taken out on a brief strip down of this gun... unlike other guns, the glock doesn't have unnecessary parts that makes cleaning difficult. and yeah.. i wished they had warmups for our interossei and lumbrical muscles and of flexor carpi radialis and ulnaris. my wrist and hand hurts after shooting.. crap must be the grip...

the GLOCK 19.. it's the best. smooth, sleek, hassle free and once loaded, it goes off wonderously smooth.

hail my sleep and hail glock.. i'm just going to stone in csu tmw...=P

Sunday, March 09, 2008

The Aftermath

I stayed up till nearly 4 am to catch a little of what hope to see our PM, AAB to give a speech on the aftermath of the elections. I too was hoping to catch the parlimentary seat vote count for the Selangor state especially for the Kelana Jaya seat.

However as things unfold, though at that time, there were no news of our beloved Datuk Lee Hwa Beng, i called it a night. I knew that more bad news were to come, for political giants have fell ungracefully in the very own system that brought them up. The People's Voice.

Penang to start of with was the first state that I had my eyes on. This state which i thought had a little advantage of influence of our PM at Kepala Batas would have a very strong fight. I silently knew that because of the economic background of the people of Penang, BN might lose the state and the opposition, with some luck, would be able to eek out a 2/3 majority. Nevertheless, i was never expecting what the result would turn out to be. Penang was a white wash. With much abuzz of Koh Tsu Koon going up to contest a parlimentary seat and with the fight among the Gerakan leaders on who to succeed the CM post in Penang, I thought the people of Penang would at least give some face to Gerakan. I really didn't expect such humiliating defeat in Penang. Gerakan are left with nothing in a state where there were a force to reckon with.

Next was Terengganu. I honestly thought that Terengganu would be back into the hands of PAS, knowing how well they wrestled it during the 1999 elections. Kelantan obviously the stronghold of PAS and BN with Khairy shouting 'PADE DOH' in Kelate during the press conference certainly did nothing but to unite the wills of the Kelantan people further to prevent the change of BN to take Kelantan.

But as the results came rolling in, states like Kedah, Perak soon fell. Perak which houses power horses like Lim Kit Siang of Ipoh Timor certainly put the opposition in the driving seat by winning of such a huge majority. Soon Ipoh Barat also went to the DAP and Taiping which was spear headed by Kayveas also fell to Nga of DAP.

All was not that bad to swallow till the arrival of the news of Samy Vellu losing his Sg Siput. This incumbent here is the strongest I personally felt to retain his seat. What his lost actually mean? How come he's being betrayed by his own people whom he claimed were behind him to the very end. I remembered during a press conference he gave to The Star which he bravely commented come what forces or an army he shall defeat it. The lost of all the top leaders of MIC, Samy, Sothinathan, his youth chief and the MIC wanita chief also were booted out. MIC is in crisis. And so is Gerakan.

MCA in this case still had a little salvo compared to MIC or Gerakan. Ong Ka Ting survived a scare which initially was thought had lost his seat as well. And surviving this election was also Ong Ka Chuan. However many deputy ministers and were shown the exit and even Datin Paduka Chew Mei Fun as well as Donald Lim were thrown out. Never I had expected Tony Pua to have unseeded Chew Mei Fun by a whopping 19k votes.

The best one came from Teresa Kok who garnered 36k votes more than her opponent, a rookie, Carol Chew. Teresa Kok, who was attacked by comic strips of her hanging in the very streets of Sri Petaling showed that BN, who used banners depicting images that degrade her as a women, that the people were offended by the disturbing supposedly hilarious comic. What irked the people was she was contesting with another women who did not make any noise as these degrading comics were put up.

Which now leads to the womens minister Sharizat losing her seat to Nurul Izzah, Anwar's daughter. At approximately 12am, there were reports on 14 uncounted ballot boxes in Lembah Pantai and this threw in speculations of BN wanting to win and cheated on these ballot boxes. However the results still were the same and Nurul Izzah won the Lembah Pantai seat.

Coming on to my very own KJ seat which saw our Lee Hwa Beng against the VK Lingam video shooter Loh Gwo Burne. Tables were turned and saw Loh overthrowing Lee with about 5k votes. I would have thought Loh shall lose. I thought Loh WILL lose. But the people made a radical change in their minds, especially the Subang Jaya people who stood by Lee during his tenure in the state government. When i got this news, i realised that things have certainly got out of hand. A radical political change has taken place. The old replaced by the new.

Now, with BN denied the 2/3 majority, and with states like Selangor, which never has been in history ruled by an opposition party, still proceed on with development as promised? Will projects be continued? Will an LRT line be built through the housing estates of Subang Jaya? Will the MPSJ now be watch closely as ever by the DAP? Even though the DAP won 15 state seat as opposed to Keadilan 11, Keadilan sec-gen Khalid will be our Menteri Besar and DAP's Teng Chang Khim will be the deputy MB. It has been agreed upon that should the opposition take Penang, it will be DAP that will be elected as the CM of Penang. And so Keadilan was given the position as the MB of Selangor.

This day is a day of political reformation. MIC's party has turned to shambles. With Mahathir and Ling Liong Sik retiring gracefully from the scene, (not much of Mahathir but more to Ling Liong Sik) Samy Vellu's lost was a way of him quitting politics in an unorthodox fashion of disgracefulness. Never in his life he would have thought of this day. Never in his life he would see his top guns fell one by one in the hands of the Indian voters, the very people that brought him up at the first place. His time is long overdue. And certainly HINDRAF issues were now shown out bright that the Indians are a marginalised lot.

What holds for MCA and Gerakan? Gerakan acting president Koh Tsu Koon is expected not to continue his political involvement in Gerakan. Which leaves the president post suddenly vacant. Will internal power struggles for Gerakan doom it's fate? Or will Koh remain steadfast and stay on and plod on in Gerakan to do major corrections for the next elections in another 5 years?

This results here today showed the world that the BN indeed has always done things unchecked, and we have set down our ultimatum. We are fed up with the empty promises that were given on manifestos before the 2004 elections which were undelivered till today. Corruption is rampant and has to be stopped. Progress must be made in order to restore the image of the ruling coalition.

I personally feel that MCA and Gerakan were the victim of the atrocities of UMNO. UMNO is already paralysed. A vote for MCA or Gerakan or MIC is a vote for UMNO. A vote for UMNO will only let them continue their legacy of corruption that plagued our nation for ages. This is a strong message to the PM that every action that he takes now, will be scrutinised to the very core. Contracts will be tendered openly. Khairy overzealousness in entering the political scene and racist remarks certainly made BN pay dearly for the innocent leaders of coalition parties. Controversial sale of ECM Libra and his appointment in several major posts have shown that he is abusing his position as the son-in-law of the PM for personal gains. His rise into politics is nothing but short cut due to his position as a relative of the ruling government. He was from a nobody to a somebody in just a matter of 3 years. Though his participation in politics were angered by some UMNO politicians, they have decided to be mum on the issue for they themselves know there's a pool of money to be made. This is the reason for the downfall of other innocent hardworking politicians.

MCA, Gerakan and MIC were dragged into the net by UMNO. The BN is shakened up. The people have spoken out loud. Change is what is needed. The people now voted not for the leaders of respective constituency but voted against the government because of pent up anger and frustrations that were too much to be handled. Even though in my opinion, Chew Mei Fun and Lee Hwa Beng or even Donald Lim had indeed kept a clean record, the people has put a cross on the opposition because they were sickened by actions not of MCA nor Gerakan nor MIC but of UMNO. Due to the coalition, when a puncture is done on the boat, the boat sinks and along with it, and so does the parties that make up BN.

People now do not believe much in the mainstream media. The young have uses the internet which now bloggers become the political watch dog of the government. The newspapers and the radio now airs news that much has been cast doubt upon. The mainstream media now isn't the main source of information but of the internet. However, I would say that only certain not all information should be believed in blindly. One should always use their faculty of thinking to process every information and not to be followed without reasoning.

A lot of tears were shed. And those were neither tears of joy of rookies that made the lines of the opposition. But tears of supporters of incumbents who felt that because they were in the BN coalition, their position is compromised due to the hatred and frustrations to the government. Now however lies this BILLION DOLLAR QUESTION.

Will the opposition now deliver? On states like Selangor and Kedah who were never ruled by opposition on a whole, will the opposition continue development? Would now scholarships or entry into the local universities for tough courses like medicine or dentistry be given more based on meritocracy? Must well deserving students go to Micheal Chong with result slips be shown to the public in The Star because being denied a scholarship by JPA or denied a place in the local universities? Or the more important question is the GOOD GOVERNANCE of the town councillors e.g MPSJ, MPAJ etc.... Will progress be continued as promised by the BN since the BN is still in power although with reduced majority?

These are questions that will be answered in phases over the next 5 years. We have voted and we have voted for change. Should things not go our way, we should blame ourselves because we have chosen and decisions were made. Let us now look for a change for the better. Let us now make our voices heard in the government. This is what we are looking for. Ministers who do things unchecked and hoping to be kept in silence will now think twice before doing so. More and more scrutiny and transparency will be called upon.

Waves of changes now hit our shores. Let us now embrace this change, for this change is what we have voted for. It is not a time to celebrate on the streets for we voted against the government not because of lack of development but more to the misappropriate usage of funds and for a better transparency at every level of the government. In the end, it's our money that we care for and not should not be used simply.

I here now look to the future. The old replaced by the young. It's the change of an era of governance. That's what we need. The young (21-25 yrs old) which comprises of nearly 30% now of the population should be aware of changes that are to come. We unite for a better Malaysia. For a fair Malaysia. For an equal Malaysia.

Malaysia Boleh!


Saturday, March 08, 2008

DECISIONS

i have never expected to blog about this. neither that i will be so fired up upon to bring myself to write this. but times now have changed so much that to a certain extent, we young voters should now come out and make our stand and exercise our rights in doing what's best for us and for our country.

it's not that the ruling coalition is bad. it's not that subang jaya roads are filled with pot holes and abandoned projects. i applaud YAB datuk lee hwa beng for having put his toils and sweat into making us subang jaya the subang we now live in.

however ruling party isn't only 1 ruling party. it's a coalition. i love the party that brings progress. but, the picture has to be seen in on a whole. things have got out of hand. for example, zakaria built his house like a mansion that dwarfs even the very own house of the beloved datuk lee hwa beng. how such a plan of renovation able to take place? has he used his powers to approve the very own renovation plan of his house?

people like in subang who lives like me in a double story terrace house of 24x70. we can't renovate to the maximum length of 70 feet. we have to leave a space of about a foot because it is claimed to be the govt land. land office will never approve that kind of renovation. if found upon u pay a fine. and my neighbours did. they find fault with us. what about zakaria? a slap in his own wallet (which of course we all know where his money comes from) and get away just like that? this is the abuse of power and money and the ranks that's happening now in the corridor of power that the ruling coalition has to tackle in this elections.

SAYA MENYEBELAHI PARTI SAYA. BILA SAYA KATA SAYA MENYEBELAHI PARTI SAYA TIDAK BERMAKNA SAYA MENYEBELAHI PEMIMPIN PARTI.

Umno has become completely paralysed. It cannot do anything (to correct itself)

the point is that if we vote and BN wins, we give the impression that the LEADER of the ruling coalition is much favoured upon. is this what we want? is this what you want? no matter how much you love the leader of your choice (in your state seat or parlimentary seat), because he's in the same boat, the coalition boat sinks and he has to go with it.
“It is for certain that in the coming general election, a lot of money would be spent in vote buying... if the ruling parties do this, we would be governed by a government that is outrightly involved in corruption”- Dr M during his perdana leadership foundation.

“For RM200, people are willing to sell their votes. They are not just selling their votes. Dia jual maaruahnya (he is selling his dignity).”

saya ini bukan bloggers yang guna perkataan yang kesat. saya tak maki hamun kerajaan. saya dengan sesungguhnya meluahkan perasaan yang terpendam dalam hati saya. yang benar yang saya perkatakan. bukannya cakap sebarangan.

i wish not to make the bloggers become a targeted lot to be the fighting point of the government to brainwash the citizens not to listen to us. therefore i leave no harsh words nor foul languages because i do not wish to have the intention that we bloggers are of no class or education that we have to resort to using these words to air our grouse against the government.

we cannot deny now that money politics have been going around. securing votes especially on 'hot' seats where chances of winning is more or less a 50-50 fight. and when why the other political members who recognise the rot that has been going on did nothing, they said, 'kita pun keluar cari makan. kita sama sama cari makan. tak sokong nanti takde kontrak'.

that's the truth. that's the political situation that we are now facing. not that it can be rectified with a vote. we have to UNITE! unite we stand or divide and we shall fall. divide and no change will be done. it's your choice! must we put up with ministers speaking broken languages on al-jazeera when interviewed on the recent BERSIH rally? our menteri penerangan who made us look bad in the eyes of the world by voting a person whose english is so broken and can't even speak properly. do you want such a leader to reflect our nation? or a minister who sleeps in meetings?

today is the day my friends. exercise your rights. your stand. your future. vote wisely. vote for WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN. VOTE WITH YOUR HEART AND REASONING.


the campaigning roofs of BN
dad walking across.
checking of polling stations
the keadilan tents. and the polling station itself. which is guarded by police and no handphones and pictures are allowed to be taken inside the room.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Deal or No Deal...

ah...

well well well.. suppose to blog about the penang/ipoh trip but then.. i've got something more exciting to blog about before the school starts again... and zhang ling zhi, i want the pics in ur camera from the trip!!

btw, penang trip was awesome... besides the fact that it isn't easy to go about with a map and no thanks to the one way streets in penang, sometimes to get to one place need to take one big round to do so...

anyway...

today i did one of the most random thing in my life... i went for the 'Deal or No Deal' audition that was held in 1U at the new wing... btw, i missed last week's audition at IKANO cuz was involved in our IMU open day so this week Non called me to go... and it's a great exposure to go on stage in front of the ntv7 camera shooting me and they asking me questions for about 10 mins.. like what i do, why i'm suppose to be chosen on the show... bla bla... ahaha..

the audition supposed to start at 1pm but then ppl were already there registering as early as 11am! i slambe oni go and reach about 12.30 lidat.. by that time i was already no 46... sien...

i went cuz Non, who is the show's host plays squash with us every mon nite... asked our squash kaki to go for audition, cuz thinking we might have the chance in the running to win that RM100k... so i just go lor.. but then it's my first time on a tv camera... so i was a bit nervous and i'm the only guy who's still studying.. the rest are mostly uncle and aunty or working redi...

and mind u, looks as easy as it seems but when u on stage and with so many onlookers from the 1U shopping complex, u just sweat ur balls out cuz it's kinda nerve wrecking a little... ahaha... i just stood there and be myself.. i actually din noe what to say so i just said everything that came to my mind.. like what if i won that 100k? i said i will give 20-30% to the kampung angkat scheme from IMU.. and the balance to do post grad studies.. come to think of it i'm like WHAT THE.... i din believe i act said it.. hahaa...

after the audition ate at dave's deli.. i din have any bfast till the auditino was over which was about 2pm.. i wasn't hungry till then.. but after that i was kinda super duper hungry and i had a steak and later 3 pcs of sushi and 2 crab sticks from jusco.. ahaha..

by 5.30 we're already home for dinner...

waiting to be interviewed.. i'm contestant 2046...
can u describe urself and why must we put u on the show? to increase rating???
i chilling giler.. u see that guy at the right wearing a suit? that's Non! and seeing my face on the screen in front of the interviewer like make me bangga giler babi... first time... ahaha...the pie that xan ordered.. too bad i din take my steak pic.. was too hungry and forgot about taking pics.. ahaha...

Sunday, February 17, 2008

the real toils and struggles of life

Dear all,

i'm not a politician. i'm not on whose side whatsoever but i'm one who believes in this story that was written by raja petra himself. this is the toils and struggles that even my grandfather 'suffered' thru in sending my dad and my uncles to school.

i wasn't born during the prewar/pre1956-1969 period and neither have most of u my friends. i'm writing this because this anecdotes and personal experience brings back memories of stories that my own dad and mum shared with me when they were young. as chinese in malaysia where we were none other than '2nd class citizens' and with no privileges. we had to borrow money now and then just to put food on the table and i have to say that for the chinese malaysian during the post war period the times were hard and many things have been put to test.

what makes me want to share this story which u can read on your own on RPK's blog is that the similarity of RPK back then with all his connections didn't make him to take the easy way out. and with the implimentation of the ali baba system in the business foray of late due to the 'uneven balance' of the NEP the chinese/indians were found the going tough in the business line.

the ali baba system of business requires a bumiputera to sit on the board of directors in order to bring them out of their 'ulu' kampung in order for them to survive in the dog-eat-dog world. however this plan has a major misfiring. if the chinese were being pressed to include a bumiputera into the business for the sake of helping them don't ever think the chinese will ever teach them the tricks of the trade. it all has to begin with the bottom rung where they have to learn from scratch. put one bumiputera into the business and let them be a sleeping partner, give them a yearly cheque of 50-60k after summation of director's bonuses, they will know nothing of the trade even though the company is growing by leaps and bounds. and these lazy buggers are more than happy just to slot in their names and let the hard work being done by others.

i mean... who wouldn't want a free cheque every year? i would. just fill in your name, and sometimes turn up for directors meeting where u can doze of just like our beloved PM and drink some coffee, shake some hands and the cheque is yours to collect.

and what makes me respect RPK is that he wasn't one of those who cut some slack and took the easy way out. he could have done so but his father knew what was the RIGHTOUS thing to do. RPK started from the bottom up. so did Tan Sri Syed Mokhtar Albukhairy himself. Tan Sri Syed Mokhtar Albukhairy was once a rice peddler who stuck to a chinese businessman and worked his way thru the business studying every trade and business deals. he wasn't born with a silver spoon and at one point in his life he had to tend to his father's cows. and we have this quality in RPK himself as well.

and now take a look at the negeri sembilan royal family whose business trade amass milions and millions of ringgit. one good example of their business is the KJCF the kian joo canning factory.

the reason i brought this up is that because even though ppl of power like RPK himself wasn't lured into the easy way out of having to get 'bantuan' from the government. or getting contracts easily without much fight which was meant to be a healthy competition due get the best ideas working. so we don't need to have ppl who cut corners and make a bridge fall even though we haven't stated using it yet or an abandoned office block which is going to be occupied, can sink into the lake.

losses are great. and worst the losses are from our tax payers money. who is to blame? poor governance? or just pure corruption practices?

here now i shall copy and paste the story of RPK here for u all to read:

Raja Petra Kamarudin

Malaya gained independence or Merdeka from Britain in 1957. But the British Colonial masters would not willingly grant Malaya independence. It took a decade of haggling before the Union Jack could be lowered and the new Malayan flag that almost looks like the flag of the United States of America could be raised in its place.

One of the issues that delayed the granting of Merdeka was the matter of what to do with the Indians and Chinese once Malaya becomes independent. India had already gained independence from Britain earlier and China had turned Communist. No doubt the British had brought the Indians and Chinese to this country from the mid-1800s to about 1920 to work the tin mines and rubber estates, but there was no way they could be sent back to their 'homeland', in particular the children of the original immigrants who had been born in Malaya.

The British refused to consider Merdeka for Malaya until and unless the Malays, Indians and Chinese sat down and worked out a solution. Merdeka would be granted only when the three races come to an agreement on what to do with the 'immigrants' who after about 100 years were not only third or fourth generation 'Malayans' but had in fact become more Malays than the Malays -- at least some of them like the Mamaks and Babas who no longer spoke their mother-tongue but spoke better Malay than some Malays.

The British knew that a hurried Merdeka without resolving the citizenship issue would just result in a blood-bath when one race, in this case the Malays, would claim sole-ownership of the country and the 'pendatang' get evicted from their land and homes. The religious diversity would also pose a problem as the aftermath of the independence of India had proven when brother fought against brother just because of religious differences. What more when it involves a diverse set of races who were also of different religions.

Finally, wisdom and common sense prevailed and the founding fathers of the nation called Malaya came to an agreement, or maybe a compromise, on what would happen on Merdeka Day. The Indians and Chinese would be granted citizenship, unless they chose to return to their homeland, but the Malays, for 'sacrificing' their 90% or so majority, would be accorded certain rights and special privileges, to be reviewed after 15 years, meaning some time in 1972.

But something happened before 1972, and that was the race riots of May 1969, and to address the discontentment of the Malays who felt they had been left out of the economic race, the New Economic Policy was agreed upon by the leaders of the three component members of the Alliance Party -- Umno, MCA and MIC. Invariably, the rights and special privileges of the Malays were not reviewed in 1972 as originally intended. Instead, the NEP became the new policy which in a way 'strengthened' the rights and special privileges of the Malays even more. But this was supposed to end in 1990 -- which meant that the 15-year review would be reviewed after 33 years instead.

But the NEP was more than just about Malay rights and special privileges. It was a two-prong attack (serampang dua mata) aimed at reducing the disparity amongst ALL the races as well as to reduce the gap between the haves and the have-nots. In other words, the NEP was about helping all the poor and unfortunate, regardless of race. And that was when the term 'Bumiputera' came into being. But Murphy's Law says that anything that can go wrong will go wrong and the Bumiputera issue was exploited to become an Umnoputra policy. And Umnoputra did not just mean Malays but anyone who serves Umno -- Indians, Chinese, Kadazans, Dayaks, etc., included. In fact, as far as the corporate world was concerned, the non-Malays benefited more than the Malays who were reduced to mere 'rent-seekers' and commission agents who earned a small fee for fronting for the non-Malays and for selling their permits and quotas, in particular to the Chinese.

The Umnoputras, of course, did not totally lose out in this 'Ali Baba' arrangement as they still had some meat on the bones that were thrown their way. But the Indians, except for a very small handful, did not even get any bones, with or without meat attached to them. But it was the fault of the Indian leaders actually. Why did they not demand their share? Why did they not demand that at least one or two FELDA settlements be allotted to them like what the Malays got? After all, the Indians were the original estate workers so they would know how to grow palm oil, rubber, cocoa, etc. Instead, while the Malays became estate workers with the help of the government, the original Indian estate workers got displaced as estates got turned into townships and golf courses and in the process the Indians not only lost their homes but their livelihood as well.

It is not that the government did not set up funds and place money in these funds to help the 'retired' Indian estate workers. It is more that those 'elite' Indians entrusted with the task or managing these funds embezzled and misused the money. In short, the Indians had cheated their own kind, as did the Malays and, to a certain extent, the Chinese as well.

No doubt, for being relegated to second- and third-class citizens, the Indians and Chinese are carrying grudges against the Malays. But is it really the Malays who are to blame? Okay, maybe Umno can and should be blamed. But Umno is Umno. Umno is not 16 million Malays. It is not even 6 million Malays. MIC and MCA too have misbehaved. Should we hang 10 million Malaysian Indians and Chinese from the tallest tree just because of what MIC and MCA have done? The Indians and Chinese would get upset if we blame them for the sins of MIC and MCA. What makes the Indians and Chinese think the Malays too would not get upset if they are blamed for the sins of Umno?

If you want to find someone to blame for your troubles, don't look in my direction. Sure, I am Malay, but I am not Umno. I never voted for Umno. I never even obtained a government scholarship to send all my kids to England. In fact, my father, who was then the son of the Governor of Penang and cousin to the late Agong, did not have money to send me to England and he refused to get a government scholarship to pay for my education. I mention this fact that he was the son of the Governor of Penang and cousin to the late Agong to demonstrate how easy it would have been for me to get a scholarship since our family was so well-connected.

Some of you reading this article probably know my Auntie, Raja Fuziah. And those of you who know her probably do so because when you went to university she was the one who gave you your MARA scholarship. Could not my father's own sister who had given out scholarships to tens of thousands of total strangers not also give her own nephew a scholarship? No, my father would not allow it. That is dishonest. That is corruption. It would have been better if my father had not been Raja Kamarudin Bin Raja Tun Uda. Then I could have got a scholarship. Instead, my father sent me to Volkswagen to do an apprenticeship on a starting salary of RM105 a month.

At first Pak Arshad would not take me because I was 'over-qualified' and the pay was too little. But my father insisted and Pak Arshad relented. Sure, that was in 1970. But even in 1970 RM105 was pittance. And I slogged it out for three years learning the trade under a Hakka mechanic whose every second word was a four-letter word. And my 'training' involved the first six months in the washing bay where I had to wash the cars before and after they were serviced. That's right, I started my working life as a tukang basuh kereta.

But I did not mind. My father promised that if I passed my apprenticeship exam he would send me to England to do Automobile Engineering. So I studied hard. I was going to get distinction in my AMIMI exam. Automobile Engineering was kacang (peanuts) for me anyway. I was already tuning my own motorcycle and in 1968, at the age of 18, had participated in my first Malaysian Grand Prix. I could soup up an engine without having to even go to school to learn how to do it. I could make my 100cc motorcycle go as fast as a 250cc. I could ride from Kuala Lumpur to Penang in under three hours even before we had the PLUS Highway. Automobile Engineering was not a career. It was a passion, in fact a 'religion' as far as I was concerned. And I took my religion seriously.

Halfway through my final exam my father died of a heart attack. He was only 46. I got distinction, the only one out of more than 100 students who sat for the exam. The 'second best' student got only a 'B'. I brought my results home to show my mother. She looked at it and broke down and cried. I did not know why she cried but I cried as well. Seeing my mother cry makes my cry and barely two months since my father died I suspected that must have been the reason.

But that was not the reason. My mother cried because my father was not able to see my exam results before he died, and he missed it by only a couple of months. “Your father was worried about you,” my mother explained. “He did not want to send you to England because he was scared you would just 'play the fool' and not study. He wanted you to prove that you are serious about your studies before sending you to England. And now you have proved it but he is no longer around to see it.”

Then my mother cried again. “I have no money to send you to England. But you deserve to go and Daddy promised you if you passed your exam he would send you.”

I don't want to go to England,” I told my mother between sobs. “I want to stay here and look after you.”

I framed my exam results and hung it on my bedroom wall and then went to work for a company at RM250 per month. RM250 a month is not a king's ransom even back in 1973 but that was all I could get. My exam results were of no use unless I wanted to go back to Volkswagen and become a car mechanic. It was supposed to be my 'passport' to England but my father was no longer around and sometimes plans have to change to suit changing situations.

Two of my 'best friends' went to university though. My Indian friend went to Singapore University and my Chinese friend went to England. But I repaired engines at RM250 a month because my father was the son of the Governor of Penang and cousin to the late Agong and he would not allow me to 'abuse' this 'position' by getting a government scholarship.

Yes, in 1957, Malaya gained Merdeka from Britain and the Indians and Chinese were granted citizenship. Then, in 1970, the New Economic Policy was launched and the Indians and Chinese became second- and third-class citizens. But at least as second- and third-class citizens they went to university. I, the 'first-class' citizen, had to start from the bottom and work my way to the top because I hated being at the bottom and longed to get to the top.

I pity the Indians and Chinese who have to accept being second- and third-class citizens and cannot do anything about it. I certainly know what it is like because that was where I started as well. But I have never grumbled about it. I don't blame the Indians and Chinese for how I have 'suffered'. I don't even blame Umno or the Malays. And I would certainly never blame my father for having too much principles; and maybe pride as well. I just drove from Kedah down to Johor and up to Kelantan, with my baby sleeping in the back seat of the car, to sell my engines so that by the age of 40 I can send all my children to England for a university education without having to run to Umno or the government for financial assistance.


FOR THOSE WHO ARE VOTING, PLEASE USE YOUR HEAD WISELY BEFORE YOU CAST YOUR VOTES..

Saturday, February 16, 2008

happy valentine's day!!

Don't noe where to start first... ahaha...

First of all, this is the first time i made something out of jars and bottles... not too much an artist myself, can't do anything artistic but then tot of giving it a try.. and then this is the result of it...

and so after xan's gp posting, we went down to kl for dinner at rest sakura at jalan imbi... we took the 'road not taken' cuz i din noe how to get down to that area other than federal highway which was so uncharacteristically jammed, which then i tot prob cuz it's valentine's day btw... was jammed till midvalley then things started to clear up a bit...

and i got something made by xan which was a key chain by cross stitching... thanks dear... looks very cute.. ehehe....=)

and so we got a nice place at the rest and this girl here can't decide on what's nice to eat which we ended up ordering nasi lemak and chicken maryland...

later we weren't that full and we ordered spaghetti marinara which took so long to come cuz it's practically jammed packed so we cancelled our order and went to '2nd round' at a yong tou foo shop. ahaha...

the food was yummylicious especially the nasi lemak... that's the trademark dish at sakura and practically every table ordered it... and it still is the best dish there... and it was really good..=) just like the pic... ahaha...
great food with great ambiance and great company...
happy valentine's day dear... =)

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

我是被你囚禁的鸟
已经忘了天有多高
如果离开你给我的小小城堡
不知还有谁能依靠
我是被你囚禁的鸟
得到的爱越来越少
看着你的笑在别人眼中燃烧
我却要不到一个拥抱
我像是一个你可有可无的影子
冷冷的看着你说谎的样子
这撩乱的城市
容不下我的痴
是什么让你这样迷恋这样的放肆
我像是一个你可有可无的影子
和寂寞交换着悲伤的心事
对爱无计可施
这无味的日子
眼泪是唯一的奢侈
我的眼泪是唯一的奢侈

心里哭的眼泪,谁明白...

大雨的夜裡

   美麗的故事總有個結局 我的就是失去了你
看著你漸漸走遠的背影 就好像今生已注定
但是我好想告訴你 想告訴你
你就是我最美的遭遇
我想我不會忘記你 就算你 留我在夜裡
就算雨下個不停

在大雨的夜裡 多希望美麗的夢永遠不會醒
雖然明知無法讓你回心轉意
故事總要繼續下去 就算雨下個不停
在大雨的夜裡 還希望美麗的夢永遠不會醒
有誰能讓世間可以回心轉意
故事還能繼續下去 就算雨永遠不會停

ahhhhh....
下雨下的不停!!! 想到这手歌.. ahaha.. bbrrrrr....