it has been a long lay off..

i also don't noe why.. just didn't feel like blogging.. busy with this and that.. mind preoccupied with this and that.. i don't even remember when was the last actual time i actually penned something down..

perhaps having a marathon cardio class with prof chin is a perfect way to get deflated by the end of the day.. or perhaps that you just wait and pray that dr tai is going on call on the nights that you are on call too so you can try to squeeze a little bit more on the kind hearted soft spoken dr tai to learn something about mind boggling neuro from him which is already mind boggling enough...

sometimes when you take a step back and reflect on the thigns that all of us have gone thru to pass out from med school, we will come to a point and wonder whether that night call with dr so and so will shape our decision one day in determining a patient's outcome (not life and death issue dramatic la). perhaps a diff choice of drugs perhaps what one fine day we read during our EBM class with prof EBM could give our patient a better prognosis..

the point is that does it really matter? will we still remember the things that we were thought before when the time comes? or perhaps the best way is that for time to tell.. or it's just that the most important lessons in life have to be faced with much difficulty before we actually learn something from it? like i ambu bagged this 19 yr old girl last time when i was in sem 6 when she collapsed due to defaulted treatment for retinoblastoma.. when i looked back, the way i bagged prob caused her to have pneumothorax being this eager clinical school bound student who just wants to help but did not know the dangers of overzealousness..

it only took me till sem 8 to learn proper bagging from dr thiru.. only did i noe that small minor things like that matters alot..

and i guess this takes on as life lessons later.. that small thing counts and the best lessons in life are best learned from what a human can feel and do.. i guess that's what im' thinking tonite at this moment when i blog this post..

good nite world..