dear friend

i know it's tough... i could hear it from the very tone of your voice... it doesn't take a genius to tell me that you are heartbroken.. it doesn't take a smart ass to understand the pain that you've been going thru... but its just plain stupidity sometimes to let it drag on till u feel ur life was at the bottom of the pit...

prob the wisest thing now is to let time take it's course... time is actually therapeutic... i realised it myself... the wound will heal but the scar still remains.. but then the pain will be gone and the scar will be there for you to realise that there is nothing perfect in this world... there are ups and downs.. there are heartbreaking moments you have to face.. let the scar be a reminder to you that when you get what u wish for, don't let it go away...

i can't say that i'm a perfect counsellor.. neither were u prepared to hear me out... but always noe that when u are down and out, when u feel that the air in u have been knocked out by a metal studded punch, always know that my fon is ere to air ur grieviences out.. but of course, it doesn't come free.. heck.. nothing comes free these days... so you know what i mean... *hints*

u can't just end something wonderful becuase u just have a hinge that something better will come along the way... u can't just let it go because u feel someone else might have feelings for u... it's just not right... u should be happy with what u have...

there is never end to 'what might have been'... it's what is going on is the most important thing.. u might think it's better the other way, but how sure can u be? be grateful for what u are having man... you can't forsee the future... you were once a happy guy but look at you now... you look terrible... i'm your friend for quite some time so i can safely say that you look terrible... yes.. and i mean it...

people make mistakes.. i'm not perfect myself... but u learn from your mistakes and don't repeat them... don't worry so much.. take a day at a time... if you think reconcilation is no more an option then move on... get busy with life... it's hard.. i know it's hard... but u have to pull ur socks up... suck it up... it's your mistake... so at some point, u have to pay for what u have done...

honestly, frankly, downright truthful from me is you should reconcile... wonderful things shouldn't be thrown away jsut like that... it takes some sincerity within you.. she's got to know you are sincere and want a second chance.. if you think she's all that you've got, then i wish u well.. we make mistakes some times... but important thing is that after we make them we must know it's our fault and make up to it...

i wish you well... it's been great to know that you didn't do anything stupid... don't do anything irrational.. be the person who you were once... sometimes things happen for a reason.. maybe something better will come along the way? i mean who knows?

i'm happy with my life now... and to let u know, i really do cherish what i have with me.. to know that now you are down, i'm willing to help you come out from this pool of mess... heck, i'm trying to study here but then i know you will read what i write... so i hope this will get to your senses... don't let me know that my efforts are in vain... just suck it up and apologise... maybe i wear my heart on my sleeve as what u say... but it's me... i'm true to what i do... you've known who i am...

i will remember you in my prayers man... just take care and hope things will turn out fine again...

you really owe me one...

yours as always,
your friend

my views on mahathir-badawi

argh..

it's been months this feud has been going on... we as malaysian citizens wonder when will the two leaders put a halt on this issue.. one is a former leader who made malaysia where we are today... and his successor was supposed to clean up his mess of cronism and political transparency...

so what transpired during the previous umno election which brought so much hope to us citizens were now cast into the shadows of doubt and of course gone up in smoke...

i have to say that when pak lah was elected as the PM, it wasn't Dr M's 1st choice.. to me i feel that Dr M's first choice was still the very then vibrant anwar ibrahim... this is my point of view... if not for anwar ibrahim lacking in patience to take over the govt, i would safely be sure that he'll be our next leader... betw anwar and pak lah.. i'm still a very much anwar supporter...

those days when i blindly stood for anwar ibrahim and his keadilan party which at that time trying to prevent BN from having 2/3 majority in the elections.. maybe it's because of anwar's passion to fight and put his stand on mahathir's act of cronism at that time.. but he sold the country's secrets and i guess that was too much for a leader to do... you can't wash dirty linen in public.. BN however managed to secure the 2/3 and ever since, keadilan now is no more than a 'independent' party status.. the BA stand during the last election could only manage to secure a couple of seats compared to the superior BN which featured pak lah as the leader... what seemed to be inspiring in the beginning now seems to have taken a turn for the worse....

ok.. to me, mahathir has every right to make a stand and question the actions of pak lah.. why can't he do that? he's still a rightful member of umno and of course, he still does get invited to speak at any general assembly umno organises... why then the outburst?

to me i feel that it's hitting out at pak lah's control now the situation of politiking in the umno govt itself.. khairy jamaluddin is making a mole hill out of an ant hill and he DOESN'T HAVE the slightest courage to meet our former PM face to face to talk it out.. Dr M has been an active politician since his days with umno even when khairy was still a toddler.. sometimes when a former national leader expresses his grieviences over a certain matter, we as young aspiring politicians should look into the big picture itself.. Dr M is still very influential among the businessman in malaysia especially the chinese... so what if he has his own cronies? did we slump so badly in our economy that we eventualy had to turn to IMF to bail us out?

NO...

did our economy became as bad as indonesia and thailand where coup can be staged to oust the ruling PM?

NO...

so what wrong is it for Dr M to hit out at pak lah? i feel that the situation now is a little touchy to handle for even pak lah himself... he's trying to make things more transparent, but things are jsut not going his way... transparency was the way to go during his last election and he promises to do that.. eradicate bribery in all level of politics... however, it's easier said than done... i could still remember his promises when he was being elected as the new PM...

of course, Dr M has every right to be upset about the current situation.. the bridge case, the selling of MV augusta for 1 euro... but then come to think of it, now spore doesn't want to cooperate in the bridge thing and augusta has be in the red figures for the past 3 years.. who wants to keep an ailing company not generating money? like MCA selling off their stake at nanyang siang pau..

maybe pak lah doesn't agree with Dr M's ideas all this while and couldn't do anything until the former premier has left the reign of presidenship... then he sets his own agenda and ways he feels is right to do so.... mahathir's a MBBS graduate.. badawi's a graduate in er.. econs or something like that.. when it comes to leading a country... i just wonder does the decision making skills come from what tertiary education background the leader comes from? i know that each PM has many aids who will share their thoughts on the country's development but then in the end, it's the very decision of the PM himself who will set the bottom line of the country's progress forward...

SO WHO'S RIGHT AND WHO'S WRONG?

back to square one? some might say even when the premier is no more in power, he should quit politics all together... go shoot some 18 holes somewhere... but mind u, mahathir can't hit any golf ball.. he's total nut when it comes to golf... so i guess he channels his energy on what the current situation is... it's like Minister Mentor of Spore.. i could still remember when mahathir slammed lee kuan yew for not stepping down altogether from the political scene after goh chok tong submitted his reign to lee hsien loong... LKY came up with MM post to keep himself in the political scene.. mahathir questioned why LKY still wants to be part of the politic fray of spore...

i guess mahathir answered the question himself.... cuz there are things that deosn't go eye to eye with the progress of the country during his reign and during the current PM's reign... he's just there to advice and to criticise when he feels it right to... it's hard to let go something that you've put so much effort into and let it go to smoke.. (like the bridge case for that matter)

chinese businessman doing well pak lah says... of course wat.. we are being thrown into the devil's pit without any help from the govt.. but we still managed to do well despite having no help from whosoever.. unlike the bumiputera's companies, they get this subsidy and that subsidy from govt but we have none..

NONE..

so our success comes from the very hard work blood, sweat and tears of the respective chinese businessman in our country... speaking of fairness, one politician also said that it's not wrong to help and give aid to the bumiputera's company... we have resulted to no choice but to fight for our very own survival here... mahathir's outburst has got some point in it.. i just wonder when only the situation can be more balanced when badawi goes home and does post mortem on the current issue..

Dr M has warned that if nothing is done, there will be a chance that the ruling govt now will lose the support of businessmen in our country... i do agree with him on this issue... business is the way to go ever since globalisatino has been embraced by our country... business keeps the money rolling and thus strengthens our economy and our ringgit as well... if you take away the rice bowl of so many businessmen around here, we will flee to other countries to do our business and when we become successful, the govt then begs us to return by giving us minor perks and incentives to lure us back... who will then return when you do not offer a helping hand at the very beginning? speaking of 'biting the finger that feeds you'... i wonder whether the 'finger that feeds' ever existed in the beginning...

this post is the very thoughts and personal idea of this blog himself.. it doesn't mean to hurt any feelings of any politicians nor show any support to any political party... i believe in such a democratic country, we must be able to express our feelings to heard..

from AP case to zakaria's case... doesn't this ring a bell to your minds now how the situation is becoming?

signing off... to those reading, your very ideas on the current matter is most welcomed...

p/s: initially my ambition was to become a politician.. those who know me long enuf know of this fact.. it was my mum who psychoed me into medical school.. i'm not complaining.. just that once in awhile, i do still have the urge to write about politics...=P

the silence

i've never thought so deeply ever in my life...

sometimes the funny thing is that when u think that everything is going on smoothly, news of the loss of one's loved one hits you so badly like a bloody sledgehammer driving thru a glass. it shatters one's hope, one's feelings and worst, one's state of mind...

and normally it catches one unawares.... like during an outing with a client, or during an opera show, or worst, during a family holiday...

just imagine the feeling of seeing your loved one slumped into unconciousness, flirting close to the door of death... it is something that one will face eventually... or one will learn eventually how to deal with it... what differentiates is...

time..

if one has lost their loved ones when they are young and naive, the loss of having a full either paternal or maternal care is lost... it's the one thing that nothing on earth can substitute that..

if one has lost their loved ones when they are already into their teens, the feeling is different. they don't have someone whom they can trust will all their hearts to share their thoughts with. they don't have someone whom they can rely upon during the darkest time of their life. there's an emptiness foreboding when u step into the doors of your house... you return to a house but no more a home.. it's just merely a house with a roof to keep u away from rain and shine...

and with the loss of a loved one, during the funeral day the person might look composed.. shakes your hand, share a word with you on how much your presence is much appreciated... but then when you give him a warm comforting hug, the body shakes and fresh tears streams down from the eye that was once calm, now shaken with new waves of anguish and sadness... worst is that there is nothing to heal and nothing you can do... sometimes now i understand why time is sometimes the best medicine...

you wonder then why didn't you said 'thank you' before they took their last breath.. why hadn't you said 'i appreciate what you've done for me'.. why hadn't you said 'i love you' before they depart from this world for good?

and when during the funeral day comes, everything comes crashing down upon you knowing real well that now your words of love falls into deaf ears... why then shed tears for a body but with no soul in it? why only cry when the coffin is being laid down into the freshly dug earth? why hadn't you shown your love openly to whoever you love most? does it really take so much 'air muka' to open up the mouth to mouth out a couple of good words to let the person you love most, know that you love them?

no matter how much you hate your loved ones, it sometimes take a little understanding to know that in life there is no place for hate... how much can you hate a person? if you pass away one day, does your hatred goes with you to the very depths of your grave? why hate a person and put so much anger and hatred in a already cruel world out there?

i don't noe when will my time be up... it maybe tmw, it maybe the next hour, or the next min, or the very moment i step to cross the road and didn't see an oncoming bus... sometimes i wonder whether the last sunrise i see is today itself..

there's nothing permanent in this world... and nothing is certain in this world... there was a time when i was crazy over money and power but how much love money can buy? how much genuine love that can be substituted with money? i guess that when one's heart is true, god takes care pretty much of the rest...

as i walked out of the funeral parlour today, i realised that the most wonderful gift that god ever gave us is our heart itself... it seems small to most of us.. but our hearts are actually big enough for love to go around, but never big enough to store hatred and greed... why use up the space for unecessary feelings? does it take a death of someone close to you to know how much the meaning of love is?

i wandered aimlessly now and then
my mind spinning wildly like a fan
till today i went and saw the light
of what have happened and what have might
will my turn be next? i asked myself
or is it when the clock strikes twelve?
but i know nothing's permanent
only a fool's mind who believe it's certain
like a flower people come and go
it blooms and wither, only time will show
but what matters is saviouring the moment
whatever time spent together, that's what is certain
i wonder now have i lived my life so fully?
for i've never thought of it so deeply
but my life now is full and that makes me happy
is that by loving my FAMILY, RELATIVES, FRIENDS, ENEMIES, and YOU my xandie..=)

ah... wunderbar...

speaking of dreams....
i had a great surprise yesterday... and it was very unexpected and very early... but so what? it was great.. that's all that matters... and it came from no other than....
*drum rolls*

XANDRA! *huggies*

yesterday, she came over after returning from singapore and guess what she bought for me?

ehehe... it's no other than....
JAY'S NEW ALBUM!!!!! STILL FANTASY....
ah... what a wonderful gift.... seriously.. i was a darn happy guy...
opening it....
thanks dear.. muaks!
seriously i din noe lor... it was a very very very early bday present and it really took me by surprise!!! ah... seriously...

VUNDERBAR!!!
*that's wonderful in german*
thank you sooo much...=)

and btw..

I WENT UP GENTING AGAIN.... seriously.... the 3rd time in 1 year?
this time it was a family trip lar... and dad and mum din enter the theme park.. they went out to jalan jalan at the *don't noe where* while me and sis went queueing up like nobody's business for rides...
ME AND SIS
REJANG FLUME RIVER RIDE (BEFORE)
REJANG FLUME RIVER RIDE (AFTER) note the wet hair and glasses!!

and for ur info... i've never seen sooooo many ppl lor at genting... i hardly can walk... i waited 1 hr plus for the rejang river flume ride which left me soaking wet... in fact, i waited an hour for every single ride... argh.. too many ppl redi... and later of the day it rained so hard i was freezing... and worst is that total rides i played?

3....

only 3 man.... rejang river, corkscrew, spinner.. that's all... and when the rain subsided, i queued up for the cyclone which in the end...
IT RAINED AGAIN...
wtf!!!!!!!! i waited half an hour and it showed no signs of stopping.. so in the end when the rain stopped, me and sis went to do sand art... l-a-m-e rite? but then it was kinda fun lar... sand art were for kiddies but then we were like being watched by sooo many tourist from middle east...
ME DOING THE SAND ART..
AND SIS TURN... can't imagine being stared at while doing the sand art.. *sweat* seriously kids stuff...=P

then we went back down at 8pm and stopped by kl town for dinner... was pretty good the dinner and by the time reach home was arleady 10.30pm... whole day out... damn tired.. neway that's all for now folks...

we din take that many pic or rather, the pic din really turn out that well.. and plus blogger is like taking ages to upload the pic.. so what the heck lar... besides camwhoring, we just walked around and ate lok lok steamboat at RM 3.50 a stick!!!!

din study during this hols man...

DIE, GONE, GONER, GONEST...
hahaha... jen lye's english... it comes with trademark... colourful colours? ehehe.. remember that...=P

菊花台

曲：周杰倫
詞：方文山

妳　的淚光　柔弱中帶傷
Your tears glistens with weakness amidst the pain

慘白的月彎彎　勾住過往
The ghostly white curved moon hooks onto the past

夜　太漫長　凝結成了霜
The night is too long and has crystallized into frost

是誰在閣樓上　冰冷的絕望
Who is in the attic filled with cold hopelessness

雨　輕輕彈　朱紅色的窗
Rain gently bounces off vermillion window

我一生在紙上　被風吹亂
I have written my life story on paper only to be blown into a mess by the winds

夢　在遠方　化成一縷香
The faraway dream has become really faint

隨風飄散　妳的模樣
The wind has dispersed the image of you

＊菊花殘　滿地傷　妳的笑容已泛黃
Chrysanthemum destroyed A whole floor of pain your smile has become faintly yellow

花落人斷腸　我心事靜靜躺
People are heartbroken when the flower falls My thoughts lay quietly aside

北風亂　夜未央　妳的影子剪不斷
The north wind is chaotic the night is still young your shadows can’t be cut

徒留我孤單　在湖面　成雙＊
Just leaving me lonely doubled when I stand by the lake

花　已向晚　飄落了燦爛
The flower has already come late, drifting down brilliantly

凋謝的世道上　命運不堪
the wilted morals an unbearable fate

愁　莫渡江　秋心拆兩半
If you are sad don’t cross the river worries* broken into two

怕妳上不了岸　一輩子搖晃
In fear that you can’t get back on shore and will sway for a lifetime

誰　的江山　馬蹄聲狂亂
Chaotic sounds of horse hoofs in whose territory?

我一身的戎裝　呼嘯滄桑
My armory shouts out the wear of time

天　微微亮　妳輕聲的嘆
The sky is starting to light up your voice is sighing

一夜惆悵　如此委婉
A night of disappointment is said in such a roundabout way

REPEAT＊＊

我爱你周杰倫！！！

emo-ing

argh.......
damn emo lar... din expect to emo in my blog... everything fine until....

ish... not like never happen before... but then it's just becuase it happen when the time i don't want it to happen....

it's all about the money $$$$$$ it's all about the tum tum tada tum tum... (just like the song)

wondering what the hell i'm so emo about?? nothing serious in particular... i'm just feeling real seriously super duper supercalifragalisticespialidocious tired after.............

3 hours solid squash... which resulted in........

seriously..... argh!!!!!!!!!! =*( =*(

damn super emo for no reason lar me.... but I WANT NEW STRINGS AND SHOES!!!!

NEW TECHNIFIBRE STRINGS GAUGE 18 : RM 45 or
NEW ASHAWAY SUPER NICK MICRO 18 : RM 48 or
NEW PRINCE SYNTHETIC GUT DURAFLEX 18 : RM 55

KARAKAL PU SUPER GRIP : RM 12

NEW PRINCE NFS 3 INDOOR SHOE : RM 150
(if can't get) i shall settle for.......

PINK AND LIME GREEN SHOELACES: RM 30....

WHO PAYS?
FOR EVERYTHING ELSE YOU HAVE.........
GETTING TAGGED AS THE MOST 'GAY SHOE' ON COURT: PRICELESS

GETTING CHAIN-SAWED UP BY DAD: PRICELESS OR WORTHLESS?
ish... i'm so becoming like pei now lar... must lar put this kinda pic in my blog... boredom? or holiday mood? tmw i'm soooo gonna get fat... 2 invitations for deepavali... ah!!! imagine all the mutton curry, prawns, nasi briyani...

and to top it off.......

STEAMBOAT WITH THE IMU FAMILY AT YUENS!!!
I'M SOOOO GOING TO BE LIKE THIS!!
*sweat*..
seriously....
in the case of physically fatigued by mentally senile-on-the-holiday-mood-feeling....

ish.. this is sooooo not Wan Jen Lye....
sounds more like Lye Jen Wan.... on an emo-ing day which had sucked $$$$ money from his pocket... got to happen on the 'time of the month'.. PMS? nope nope... i mean when holiday lar... go out jalan jalan... relaly seriously.......
*broke*

*sweat*... what the hell is wrong with me today??

i'm seriously so like pei now... ULTIMATE *SWEATS*...

wahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

now... seriously syiok sendiri....=P

P/S: ok.. on the serious side... i am still eligible for sukma 2008... they now change the category to U-23... so that means... i have a chance to making it into the team...
P/S/S: secondly... i don't think i'm able to study for this week... today's totally drained and tmw is feasting time and sun is out with relatives... how come i feel guilty not studying pharmaco and parasito when it's a holiday?

for the 1st time of my life, i'm laughing at the very own sight of my post...=P

this time....

*SWEAT* X 10....

dreams

ahaha... i'm dreaming.....

not wrong rite? i can't seem to concentrate on the stupid parasitology notes by prof mak joon wah... plus his slides and 2 neoplasia notes to cover... gave up waiting for prof robinson's slides to be up on the I drive... stupid man.. his fri's lecture is not even up yet... call that efficient.. i don't want to tangguh anymore... so borrowed li shun's copy and foto 1st... at least can read a little.. when slides up tmw i will go print again for cleaner notes...

well, been fine of late now... just that studies are seriously getting tougher... and trying my best to keep up in shape.. can't afford to slack... well, study hard this week then next week raya so..... enjoy!!!! planning to have like steamboat dinner at yuen's... just hope everyone can make it lar... so one big family can 'cai cai sek fan'...=P ehehe... ah.. that reminds me to discuss the date of the steamboat tmw... angelene going to seremban by next week... so put this week fri maybe.. just a thought...

anyway... i have to post this cuz i'm sooooo in looooovvvvvveeeeeeeeee wwwwwwiiiiiittttthhhhh

JAY CHOU!!!!! 周杰倫!!!
千里之外.... it's just soooo nice man.... ur new album is real good... he's seriously getting better and better....

ALL I WANT FOR MY PRESENT IS.....

AHAHA.... seriously.. i used to think that he's gay... but then after his successful november chopin album and his 一路向北 from Initial D....

周杰倫 rox!!!!!!

我爱你周杰倫!!!!

i'm not gay thou... but then i just wonder how come he can write fantastic songs.. vincent fong also been doing a great job with the lyrics... and jay's becoming real good in acting especially after his debut movie in Initial D.... man.. guys.. take a look at what jay's capable in his short movie 'Twilight's chapter seven'... my full admiration for him....

i just love to listen to jay's songs... especially when feeling blue... his songs just somehow is real soothing to my ears... and boy... love it ultimately max when i play guitar together lar... sorry to my neighbours but then... seriously that's what i've been doing practically everynite lar... love his songs especially all time favourite 一路向北!

okok... gtg now... works been piling up... shit... then.... my guitar's call is too strong...

see ya folks...=)

thankful

it's been a rough week...

and one thing that i learn is that sometimes when things go out of expectations, u need someone to be there beside u, encouraging u on with words of comfort and assurance...

thank you dear...

there are times when i feel challenged and things don't go my way... and worst is that the things that goes against ur will and u noe that u can't eradicate the source of it but just to hang in there till the whole thing is being played down or when the whole issue as subsided... i'm sure it will take some time... but i'm very thankful to u to have stood beside me while we go thru this...
i'm glad to know that u are always there for me... it really means a lot and i really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart...

and i also want u to know that i'll always be there for u too...

thank you dear... i know it's just so simple the word but it really means a lot to me...

'until things are going your way again'....

thank you for being with me while i make my way out from a deserted lane....

love you... muaks!

awry but therapeutic

what a day....

sometimes a bath is all it takes to make ur day a happier... today's a bit screwed up... everything seems to be just falling onto me, falling apart and seriously, i feel like i'm a walking zombie now.. as for now lar....
i woke up at 7am this morning. yeah. chew on that... so freaking early on the day after exams.. i don't noe why i woke up that early but then i just can't cont'd sleeping.. just rolling sideways on my bed and finally i made up my mind to just get the hell up... dad's already awake anyway... so i thought maybe go exercise with him before he goes off to work...
only then he said that today's a public holiday and no work and he's up early to do marketing...
great....
i tried to go back to bed but then somehow i can't get my mind to doze off... so i sat down and did my pbl lar... and printed out.. which later i found out it was a blessing in disguise why i did that...
ok.. then everything seems to be fine until we had meeting for chess club regarding the recruitment drive... and first bomb shell is when kwang yang ask me and han ying to skip our second lecture tmw and thursday to have simultaneous match with anyone who is interested in joining the club... beat me or han ying is free lunch... well, even though it's epidemiology class tmw but then the idea of skipping classes is like 'wtf????' i pay 24k a sem to skip class for chess club? that's the reason why i don't want any post... so that i don't have to do this kinda thing.. but why i have to do it? just a batch rep oni wat... ish...
ok.. so we had our nursing week briefing and a lecture by prof graham robinson... so this was when my day went awry like the house of cards fall... like a cascade...
i came home to print out robinson's notes oni to find out that my com got problem... i did some tweaking and found out that i UNINSTALLED MICROSOFT OFFICE accidentally... now that's real shit.. and it's the oni com in the house linked to the printer... then i went downstairs to print oni to find out my downstairs printer also kaput.. the printer head cacat... so luckily i did my pbl this morning.. cuz if not, i don't noe how to print lar...
then i printed oni the last 3 pages of robinson's notes.. my stupid 4-in-1 printer prints starting from the LAST page... i'm like what the heck... since when printers start to print from the BACK page?
and another thing is that i came home early today cuz dad msg me saying he's going to take my car to service... cuz i changed my drive shaft like barely 2 months ago and it's still giving me the croaking and cracking sound whenever i drive... so since warranty 3 months, might as well do it up... and then i rushed back oni to find my dad eating salad and he just left with my car...
funny thing was he told me that shop closes at 6.30pm and i have to be back early so that he can ask the foreman to test drive the car before can diagnose the prob...
so i'm back early...
and you oni left like 4.30? so why the heck ask me to so rush come back?
ish... dad said i was bit too worked up... i said no... but yes... today somehow got pissed cuz i wanted to print the notes in the e-lab only to find out that pharmacy book the e lab.. then the e lab in the library printer not working... so i have to wait till like 4.30pm... i sumore so smart to ask the lecturer that whether i can tumpang use the com just to print something and all he said was "sorry. booked. u not pharma student rite? later"...
got hell of a diff whether i pharma student or medic student lar.. got empty com wat.. not like i will kacau ur class also... and i asked POLITELY...
i wonder why oni the pharmacy students so damn friggin lucky to use the e lab more often than us... why we pay so much and don't get to use the e lab for studies?
that was when i had a cold shower... i wonder sometimes why do i get worked up over simple issues like this... and when i thought i had a cool bath to sort of 'cool' me down only to find myself slipping on my own foam bath which i din wash off prop on the floor...
seriously...
today's a mess...
and i'm blogging now cuz today like i ran into some serious puddle of mess and feel like i needed to lash out at something or someone... those days i would just pick up the fon and call buddies like gerald, chris, kitty, brendon... but then now, there's no one to listen to my crap nemore...
ah.. must be the haze that got the better of me... i wished i had the energy to kinda study but there's just nothing or no momentum to get me going on the books..
and so i shall sleep...
ahaha...
okok.. i shall stop here now.... wish those who had finish their sum 1, may u score well in the exam... and for those who are going off to japan for holiday, i wish u have a safe trip...
and to those, who like me, who had a rough day or have nothing to do but to just chill out after exams, well, it's always good to spend time with ur loved ones... be it ur family, friends or ur gf/bf.... it's therapeutic... like my movie outing with xandra yesterday... does wonders after one whole month of stressful studying...
seriously...
or maybe it's just the medical student's point of view...
my bed's calling me... see u folks soon...


our dinner together after watching movie after exam
ahhh..... and our soup.... =P

we had a great time didn't we?? muaks! =)

wandering

From YOU to ME....
a dedication from Bobby G Blackly Jr.

I wonder if you think of me
When night is drawing near.
And in the shadows of your room
The walls around you disappear.
I wonder if in your quiet thoughts
Your dreams of me are anymore.
When in the silent, velvet blue
The moon is tapping at your door.
I wonder if the shining stars
That dangle from the clouds above
Reminds you of my whispered words
In promise of eternal love.
I wonder of the lonely light
That breaks upon the early dawn
Still holds a tender memory for now
So long I have been gone.
I wonder if you dream of me
When the cloudless skies are blue
Because across each day and night
My thoughts are constantly of you.


And from ME to YOU...
a dedication from me, myself and I.. i hope you like it...=)

And all these while you've stood by me
I couldn't be more blessed.
Your poem make me wanna flee
into your arms to be caressed.
If the stars above so brightly shine
and twinkle in the milky way,
they shall scintillate with your arms in mine
while we watch the the break of day.
I couldn't help but to sing to you
this poem in my mind,
to help you climb to bed with burdens few
and leave your lecture notes behind.
So if now you are reading this,
know that this comes from my heart.
It is you in my heart i deeply miss,
I pray we shall never be apart.

Wan Jen Lye
3/10/06
9.50pm